How to motivate yourself to do Self Inquiry and how to do it right ?

[Moritz]

Hey guys,

so I´ve been doing Self Inquiry every day now for about 5 days. (30 mins daily sometimes an hour.)

I´m planning to Keep this habit but the Problem is that this whole process seems very grindy and frustrating to me and I don´t know if I´m getting anywhere at all. 

Sometimes I feel like I´m becoming Aware of hints of something but only for split seconds.

 

So do any of you who have more experience in this have tips for how to navigate through the beginning stages. (Which I assume are something like 6months/1 year)

 

I would love to hear your thoughts, opinions and ideas !

 

With love,

Moritz

 

Note:

I´m not a Self Actualization Newbie. I´ve meditated for about 1 1/2 year everyday, eat clean vegan for about 1 3/4 and do Shadow Work & Life Coaching at least once a week. 

I also have read tons of books on loads of Topics, watched almost all Leo Videos with many notes, work on my relashionship etc. etc. 

[molosku]

The more you fail,  the better.  You are frustrated because your mind is trying to conceptualize the unconceptualizable.  The realization you are after, remember,  is that there is no self.  Wonder why inquiring to it is so hard?

Love the question and love the frustration

Edited January 9, 2018 by molosku

[Nahm]

@Moritz It’s unconditional, so you can not grind your way to it, it is what does that grinding. Relax, allow. It’s not that you are nothing, it’s that you are the whole thing. Even just holding one thought, this whole, deeper you remains hidden, as it is what’s behind the one thought.       Of course, I understand someone starting self inquiry is in the position to believe or not believe this statement, but, it should be fun. Finding your true self, should be fun. It should be enjoyable. In this lifetime, you only get to do it once. It should feel like letting go of all your concerns, and turning the world off for a bit. Just Being. The fact that you have to see past those who tell you ultimately you’re a meaningless void of nothing, or that there are ‘demons’ along the path, or that you’re just an evolutionary biological thing - that’s just part of the game. I would contemplate - where the fuck’s all this love coming from, really? You’re the maker of the game, and the seeker. Keep on your practices, nothing is more worthwhile. ❤️

[Moritz]

molosku:

thx man. Great insight. That´s actually what my girlfriend told me yesterday about this issue. ^^

Great answer ! :-)

 

Nahm:

Yes allowing the love and flowing with it while staying consistent sounds like a good gameplan for me. That´s actually where I want to combine this work with my Shadow Work/Self Love Work. Because to feel the infinite unconditional love of the universe and realize it´s oneness you have to believe that you´re good enough for it. That you deserve it.

Thanks for all the wisdom and guidance ! 

Much appreciated.

 

With love,

Moritz