I want to do an ibogaine retreat.
I am going to take small doses(2-3g in root bark) just to make me hallucinate slightly everyday for a month(or less depends on how it will going).
I am not going to do any meditative technics.
Just lie down let go of control and see what happens.

I am doing this because I want to fix my social anxiety.

Am I doing this right?
I've never done this before so I've no idea about how effective this could be.
My relatives are completely against that
because they think that it is useless because
I am doing this to avoid doing the job(fixing it through AA),
and I am wonder if I am actually doing this just find a way to avoid doing the job.
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As I said before I am doing this because of my social anxiety,
but actually I am not doing it for any particular purpose.
I simply could not know what do I need.
So asking me "what do you wanna fix?" could be fatal.