Making decisions...?

[Nathan]

So I'm "Getting back on the path?" after running from it during my first bout of ego-disidentification. 

I want to do sitting meditation without distraction or part of me wants to... But I've begun to stop trying to force things to happen. I'm kinda just watching reality in motion most of the time and the urgency to meditate keeps arising in my mind but I don't act on it. Feels like I'm meditating in spite of distraction.

All in all I'm pretty confused about the concept of making decisions. Am I supposed to be acting on these thoughts occasionally rather than just watching everything go by?

Edited January 8, 2018 by Nathan

[AleksM]

You have to know what to act on and what to ignore. You don't have to force things to happen, you have to just allow things to happen.

Don't get stuck in the observer ego trap, see this post:

 

[Nathan]

Thank you. So I'm identifying with awareness which doesn't have an indentity and the ego is able to maintain itself indefinitely like that?

[Nahm]

1 hour ago, Nathan said:

So I'm "Getting back on the path?" after running from it during my first bout of ego-disidentification. 

I want to do sitting meditation without distraction or part of me wants to... But I've begun to stop trying to force things to happen. I'm kinda just watching reality in motion most of the time and the urgency to meditate keeps arising in my mind but I don't act on it. Feels like I'm meditating in spite of distraction.

All in all I'm pretty confused about the concept of making decisions. Am I supposed to be acting on these thoughts occasionally rather than just watching everything go by?

It’s supposed to be simple & easy. The thoughts you want, you want. The thoughts you don’t want - meditate. Some studies have shown, and I agree, that will power is highest once we wake up, and declines to almost nothing by bedtime. I think one could argue this is connection / consciousness. Either way, if you’re aware perspective has everything to do with how life goes, then you make how you feel as the highest priority, and are focused on meditation every morning being part of your life.  Sugar comes to mind, in the sense, when we’re in the ‘day after’, or the sugar withdrawal state of mind, our outlook blows. That’s a tricky beast because with a blown state of mind we lack the clarity to trace the negative experience back to the sugar, and the addiction craves more sugar. Shitty cycle. I see it similarly with meditation - you can’t solve a problem with the same state of mind that creates it. The only way to know how much better life will get, is to meditate every day. 

[Nathan]

51 minutes ago, Nahm said:

It’s supposed to be simple & easy. The thoughts you want, you want. The thoughts you don’t want - meditate. Some studies have shown, and I agree, that will power is highest once we wake up, and declines to almost nothing by bedtime. I think one could argue this is connection / consciousness. Either way, if you’re aware perspective has everything to do with how life goes, then you make how you feel as the highest priority, and are focused on meditation every morning being part of your life.  Sugar comes to mind, in the sense, when we’re in the ‘day after’, or the sugar withdrawal state of mind, our outlook blows. That’s a tricky beast because with a blown state of mind we lack the clarity to trace the negative experience back to the sugar, and the addiction craves more sugar. Shitty cycle. I see it similarly with meditation - you can’t solve a problem with the same state of mind that creates it. The only way to know how much better life will get, is to meditate every day. 

Okay. I'm going to start a morning meditation ritual, hopefully some clarity follows... I could do with some

[Joseph Maynor]

I recently went back to Meditation after not doing it for about 4 months.  I would follow your authentic-self.  Sometimes you need a change of routine.  I know I did.   Don't try to force anything.  Just be the Watcher and watch it.  The Mind will then auto-correct the issue for you after a while.  

Edited January 9, 2018 by Joseph Maynor