Why cant i stomach this "idea"?

[Alien]

 Im really starting to contemplate my reality now at this point and i realy love doing it, but everytime i do and start to get a tangible hint that reality is just groundless to the point where you cant make amy statement of it at all, i get this sort of existential panic. Although i actually dont have a problem with my ideas being wrong. Why is this? 

[Joseph Maynor]

Reality is to be observed not conceived of.  If you observe reality, you can be as curious as you want.  But as you observe, you will note insights.  But those insights need to be clung to loosely and tentatively.  Don’t try to control reality.  Just try to see it more accurately.  If you can do this, you can free yourself from many traps, which are satisfying in the moment but unfulfilling long-term.

Edited January 7, 2018 by Joseph Maynor

[Natasha]

23 hours ago, Alien said:

i get this sort of existential panic.

Replace 'i' with 'the ego' 

[Shin]

On 07/01/2018 at 0:51 AM, Alien said:

 Im really starting to contemplate my reality now at this point and i realy love doing it, but everytime i do and start to get a tangible hint that reality is just groundless to the point where you cant make amy statement of it at all, i get this sort of existential panic. Although i actually dont have a problem with my ideas being wrong. Why is this? 

You sense the falsehood of your supposed existence (as an ego).

That's a good thing.

[Nahm]

@Alien It’s the idea of “you” that is at the root of this. Idea’s are one thing, “I literally don’t exist” is a bucket of minduckery. ?