Habits or Chaos

[Jonson]

I was thinking about this : 

I made myself a plan for 2018 , I wrote down what I want to achieve and I wrote down the habits i need in order to achieve those goals. 

But as I was writing these down , I had this thought that with all these habits I will have every day so organized , that  i will miss out on interesting experiences or entertainment  , relaxation  because I'll have my daily rituals that I'll not want to break .

I feel like if I structure everything than I won't be able to be spontaneous cause I'll have to do everything at specific times. For example if I plan to meditate everyday at 3 pm and one day I have the opportunity to go on a date with a girl or I have a great idea on drawing something cool  , I'll have to choose meditation so i don't break the habit.  I can plan free time in my schedule , but then having that free time every day in the same time interval , might become pretty robotic in a sense. Or going to sleep everyday at a specific time  also feels pretty robotic to me.

Maybe I say this because I haven't been too disciplined in my life , I was always chaotic  . I meditated once 60 consecutive days or worked out 3 times a week for 3 months . These were my biggest disciplined "action-takings " . 

In my life for example  : I would want to work on different projects and not necessarily having one single field that i master. Like I would  want to make a film for like 1 year than become good at public speaking than i would learn to paint , maybe learn programing and automatize stuff in my life through different softwares . 

What do you think  ? 

Now that i read what i just wrote i feel like disagreeing with my past self :)) I'll come back when i actually took the disciplined action for like 1 or 2 months and then I come back sorry 

Edited December 31, 2017 by Jonson

[Nahm]

37 minutes ago, Jonson said:

I was thinking about this : 

I made myself a plan for 2018 , I wrote down what I want to achieve and I wrote down the habits i need in order to achieve those goals. 

Focusing on wanted??

But as I was writing these down , I had this thought that with all these habits I will have every day so organized , that  i will miss out on interesting experiences or entertainment  , relaxation  because I'll have my daily rituals that I'll not want to break .

focusing on unwanted ?

I feel like if I structure everything than I won't be able to be spontaneous cause I'll have to do everything at specific times. For example if I plan to meditate everyday at 3 pm and one day I have the opportunity to go on a date with a girl or I have a great idea on drawing something cool  , I'll have to choose meditation so i don't break the habit.  I can plan free time in my schedule , but then having that free time every day in the same time interval , might become pretty robotic in a sense. Or going to sleep everyday at a specific time  also feels pretty robotic to me.

what’s the point of living if you prevent yourself from enjoying life. 

Maybe I say this because I haven't been too disciplined in my life , I was always chaotic  . I meditated once 60 consecutive days or worked out 3 times a week for 3 months . These were my biggest disciplined "action-takings " . 

In my life for example  : I would want to work on different projects and not necessarily having one single field that i master. Like I would  want to make a film for like 1 year than become good at public speaking than i would learn to paint , maybe learn programing and automatize stuff in my life through different softwares . 

What do you think  ? 

Now that i read what i just wrote i feel like disagreeing with my past self :)) I'll come back when i actually took the disciplined action for like 1 or 2 months and then I come back sorry 

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