Becoming The Truth

[shamaanitar]

This experience happend about a month ago and it has really been the point of no return. I was looking at my environment whilst candy flipping and of course, naturally, felt very good. The question arised, where, what and which is feeling good. I did not try to think this thought, I felt it.  And then suddently there it was. The me that had been was no longer there yet I had never felt more at home. I no longer was but yet "I" was everything. My partner, who had helped push me to this point my helping me realize that my thoughts were not in my control and were not me, was sitting next to me and I began to thank him. I felt as I was thanking myself as I did not see any difference between us (or with myself or anything else.) Then the most oddest thing happend. I began to read his mind? We kept looking at each other and without saying a word had conversations.

I felt as I was him and he was me and saw that they reason that I had fallen in love with him, was because I saw him as the exact opposite of me. The yin to my yang. He had recently left me after a long relationship and I had felt extreamly unhappy due to it. I had felt as I needed him. I realized that what I thought I was needing in him was already in myself. As he was me. I was him.

This sensation of truth and of being complete was odd very familiar yet something I had never felt. Everything that had ever happend to me seemed like the biggest joke I had played on myself. As I, and my partner had both hinted to this, as I had always known the truth. The telepathic conversation added another dimention to this and this was the single most important thing that ever was. I have had this thought at the back of my head for a long time, I am kind. The meaning is to be kind. And there I truely was. Kindness. Love. Everything. I asked my parter what he wanted to do, as I was free. I did not mind what would happen from this moment on. I knew what I was and I knew external things would not change it. I knew there as happiness at every moment, I just needed to stop and be it.

Prior to this knowing of the truth I had been a very emotional person, easily led away by thoughts and emotions. Although thoughts still arise, I recognize that they are not true. I feel as I am less emotional, although there are still some times (very rarely) when these get a hold of me for a moment.

I'm sure I am forgetting to mention some parts but I thought that this could be an experience worth sharing, especially for my fellow monkeys who might define themselves as emotional. There is the truth, just keep doing the work. I leave you with this quote from Gangaji:

The love that you search for everywhere is already present within you. It may be evoked by any number of people or events. But finally, you must realize you are this love. The source of all love is within you.

Thank you <3
 

Edited December 30, 2017 by shamaanitar

[molosku]

You left out the part where you started to act and talk like me and stole my identity. I died a little right there too. 

Ily <3

[Nahm]

@shamaanitar fucking beautiful man.   Love needs not love. I’m jealous of what is ahead of you! ❤️

[shamaanitar]

@molosku Yes, I indeed did, although I do think it was both of us doing it. To me it was a mutual awakening although I do not prefer using that term. I love us, this, all as well <3

[shamaanitar]

@Nahm Thank you. Don't be jealous as you most likely already are "here" too. You just need to remember it. Much love

[nightrider1435]

Yep this is the point of no return.