Weird realistic dreams

[Dreamwalker]

This may turn into longer post but I will try to keep it short. Ok  we all have dreams yet can't remember them or remember only some pieces the day after, although we think we sometimes summed our all dream in our minds i think that some piece is always missing. Since i was a kid i had very realistic dreams, i was always fascinated by dreams i used to solve problems in my dream, i always could find a connection with something in real life but someone would say to me, you just dream what you think of, well i can't deny that but it has a deeper meaning i think. What i wanted really is to someone help me to make a difference between my "realistic dream" and a lucid dream. I had them more than i could count or remember. It started when i was a kid. I had a really strong imagination i could stay alone for days and not to feel need to hang out. But let's return to dreams. I often as a kid had nightmares too then i wake up in the middle from it and go to my grandmas bad and lay next to her so i could continue sleeping. As time was passing i was afraid of going to sleep so it could happen again, i had my own bedroom and so i was always sleeping alone. In those dreams i could feel presence of something like something is watching me, of course i was thinking that aliens are here. It was frighting i felt helpless. Just before i fall asleep i could feel that i am very small in a very big place i always picture that in my mind as i am very small in a big room, but i am not claustrophobic. You know those dreams when u are falling from the sky or from somewhere and then wake up just before u fall down? Well i never woke up i always felt down facing the ground and feel strange pain it lasts for a short time and then it goes away. Later i had a dream that i was stabbed with a knife in my back but i wasn't dying just after that dream goes on to something else. I later often had dreams of natural disasters, tornado and bad weather and tornadoes don't even occur in my country, later i had dreamed of war. Dream starts peaceful where i am in a forest that was close to the place i used to live just it looks different in my dream. Then i just start hearing plane engines from far away, they are getting closer then starting to drop bombs, everything feels so real, people start to panic i her explosions mixed with those plane sounds then i see a fighter plane i start to think its targeting me then i starts shooting at me, i run and hide and it stops. I dreamed that i was killed by a mortar. Shell exploded behind me and it ripped of part of my back. Next scene i am at operating table and i could feel someone stitching my testicles. After that i dreamed armageddon i am on a field sky is red, then fireballs start falling and destroying everything, crating big holes in the ground. Just recently i had another dream of war just when i start hear those war planes it's like i could her my taught " here it comes again" i was in a room i see those planes bombing every thing then doors blows open a man with an AK enters the room i lay down on the floor and he blows my head with a bulled, always that same feeling like when mortar destroyed my back or when stabbed with knife..  I just felt a need to share this and to . I figure it has some meaning, probably relating to my emotional issues. But those tornado and armageddon dreams were before depression hit me war was after. What I meant to say that depression is not the main reason for dreams like this. But it could be kind of emotional stress i had before. But one the bright side I have this realistic dreams when i do other things it just feels so real, I tried lsd once but it looks like guy that gave it to me didn't say that it's to strong i took whole piece, then next 8 hours were indescribable its like i could see my mind, if that makes any sense. Anyway what i wanted so say is that later i had dreams in which i am on acid and it looks just like when u are on acid but just the visuals. So i think those are lucid dreams but i dont have full control, maybe its because it happened to me many times i consider it as just a dream, i don't know what that control could mean, i know that i just cant jump from ground and fly to outer space as some people think lucid dreaming is. I think its something like your world but sometimes full of strangers. I pretty much see that i jumped from one thing to another in this post but i don't feel like changing it.

Have a nice day and keep dreaming

[Monkey-man]

Try to remember details of location and draw a picture, eliminate everything you saw in dream that you also saw in real life, so what's left is staff which you never saw anywhere in real life and on tv or thought about, this staff might be memories from your past life. Possible you've died at war in your past life, if you see war all the time it can be it.

i have war dreams all the time, and everywhere i'm sort of spying around and trying to escape.

[Dreamwalker]

I taught about that, interesting stuff. Will try to remember as much as i can and draw it , and maybe eventually find that place..

[snowleopard]

@Dreamwalker  I keep having this weird 'self'-perpetuating dream 24/7 ... aka this life