30 hours badtrip overdose iboga root bark tripreport

[Parki]

This is really bad tripreport, but it's better than none.

I am 23y/o male, 60kg.

I took 5g iboga root bark and another 5g after an hour.
I did that just after awakening so I was fasting for 8-12 hours.
I had just a little bit of nausea. I didn't vomit.

After 4-6 it peeked and decreased a little
and since then it didn't decreased at all for around 20 hours
and for the last 6 hours it almost got to none.

I had irregular heartbeat, 160/130/98 blood preasure(normally I have 100/70/60)

After 24 hours in I called first-aid
I didn't that before because I did 5g last time
and after 8 hours trip started to decrease,
so I always was in a the mood that it's goind to decrease soon,
except it didn't.

The most weird stuff happend at the last 6 hours,
when the intensity decreased significantly.

I wasnt really afraid to die in the process,
but I was really afraid that it could get worse
and here could be real possibility of death.
If I would die that night, it would be really miserable death.

It was like I became aware of the processes in my body
and some really evil force araised and moved through my body.
And the force like really hated me
because it was like it's not suppose to araise
in such situations,
and at some point the experience started to resemble the experience below.

At the age of 16(23 now) I had a terrifying experience(
not on psychedelics just out of the blue at the middle of the night)
it felt like the entire universe is about to die, not just me
I wish I could go into that even tho it's absolutelly terrifying,
but I was afraid that due to fear increase
heartbeat could increase as well and I could die,
so I tried not to go into that and I didn't.

I don't like to describe this part because it was really weird
and I don't want to exaggerate.
"An evil force araised and moved through my body"
I don't know what the fuck is that, but I can't came up with better.

I also watched psychedsubstance vid
and 5g did nothing nearly to me,
so I thought that 10g would be fine.

It's still not absolutely clear to me what did I wrong.
Initially I got into psychedelics because of Leo,
so I always was like "Do research, otherwise it could be lethal"
but my notions of a good research clearly doesn't meet reality,
even tho for me it look like I did it all.

I don't like what happened not because the experience was bad,
I actually don't care about it,
but because it's not clear to me how did I end up in a such situation,
so I am afraid to get into such situation again.
I don't mean "get into such situation because of sloppyness"
I mean do all perasdf and still end up in a such situation.

[Parki]

should I move it to trip-reports-mega-thread?

[Nahm]

@Parki your dose was bigger than your foundation. Redefine your meaning of research.  

[Viking]

you were clearly not ready. in my opinion dont do psychedelics for another few years. you have serious work, practice meditation and learn sober. you have to learn how to surrender.

[Shin]

Unless you've done some serious shadow work, psychedelics will most likely always fuck you.

The "normal" human psychee is so fucked up that of course they have bad trips, it couldn't be any other way.

Not saying this for you specifically, but it has to be said once in a while.

Edited December 15, 2017 by Shin

[cetus]

On 11/27/2017 at 8:47 AM, Parki said:

it felt like the entire universe is about to die, not just me
I wish I could go into that even tho it's absolutelly terrifying,

@Parki If you dared to realize what you truly are, you could swallow the universe.