After Doing Some Life Purpose Work Recently, I Feel Like I Was Much More In Touch With My Authentic Self In College Than After College

[Joseph Maynor]

And I was very adamant about being me in college, I prided myself on it actually.  After college, I feel like I gave that part of me away or it got burned out of me, and I had to re-discover it just recently.  Does this resonate with your experience?

I was pretty adamant when I was in college that I wanted to be a freelance writer.  And the recent life purpose work I did seems to confirm that.  But when I got out of college, I didn't have the wisdom or the balls to actually make it happen, so I didn't do it.  I took a more conventional job as a paralegal instead.  I wanted to write on the side, but now I realize that that was not giving my career the shot of adrenaline it needed to be a real backbone for my life: so I could support myself and my life with my career fully.  If you treat your job like a hobby, your backbone is gonna be more like jelly than a steel-rod.  You need a steel-rod backbone to live an exciting, Big life.

I think I had a limiting belief that writers don't make money or that it's really hard to make money as a writer.  I never explored this either.

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Edited November 22, 2017 by Joseph Maynor

[HII]

What keeps you from saying "okay fine, until now I just didn't do it, for reasons x, y and z - but from now on, I'm going to find out if I can still make it happen"?

[vibrate]

I can totally relate. I recently explored my biography some more and in-depth and found out that I pretty much had it figured out in my teens (intelligence-cycle of 11 years), so between 11 and 22 I made really good decisions, was mentally stable etc, and then I somehow lost that in my early 20ies and the years leading up to 33 are, in retrosepct, just a HUGE mess of distracting and numbing myself. I worked way to much on things that did not matter (on top of doing really good projects too), waisted enourmus amounts of time and money in relationships, was drinking too much etc. I feel that, very slowly, I'm getting back on track and often have the feeling of "wait a minute, I had this figured out already"....Pretty frustrating.

About the limiting belief about the writing-stuff: I also have that, and, ironically, I made good money with freelance wrtiting but was sucked back into a paid job by my need to be of service to others (a former boss needed someone to fill a gap and I could and did)...Not that I think I should be a writer right now, but writing is certainly a strong side of mine and I still have the belief it would not monetize.

So what did you do to egt rid of the limiting belief?

[Leo Gura]

@Joseph Maynor Yes, of course. The longer you live, the more culture and society will infect your mind with their nonsense ideas, until the point where you forget what it was like to be authentic. Society beats passion and authenticity out of people. That is the whole function of society! It's a mechanism to fabricate a consensus reality through lies and willful ignorance.

It can be very helpful to think back to how you were when you were a child. If you had a decent/good childhood, you will have memories of being more conscious back then than you are now. Reconnect with those old memories to lift yourself out of your current low-consciousness funk.

The education system especially robs kids of their authenticity. Think back to what you desired before all your educating. That was the real you.

P.S. If you had a traumatic childhood, ignore this advice. That was NOT the real you, that was a low-consciousness ego defense.

[-Rowan]

@Leo Gura

 

How do we prevent society beating passion and authenticity out of us? I'm 20 and curious as to how it happens. Also, how do we reconnect with childhood authenticity? Psychedelics? 

[Shin]

5 minutes ago, -Rowan said:

@Leo Gura

 

How do we prevent society beating passion and authenticity out of us? I'm 20 and curious as to how it happens. Also, how do we reconnect with childhood authenticity? Psychedelics? 

Raise your consciousness.

[Leo Gura]

7 hours ago, -Rowan said:

@Leo Gura

How do we prevent society beating passion and authenticity out of us? I'm 20 and curious as to how it happens. Also, how do we reconnect with childhood authenticity? Psychedelics? 

All the work we're doing here. All the stuff talked about my the videos, LP course, etc.

[-Rowan]

Thanks guys!