Not Changing For Anyone

[Algi]

Hi,

Both blessing and a curse to being yourself, especially if everyone is around you follows the "norm" and silly things that society follows. Blessing that you are being your authentic self, and it's awesome. Although on the flip side it does get lonely at times. Recently breaking up with my ex naturally left me in emotional pain, mainly because she was that person that just understood all the higher concepts in personal development that I admired like spiritual enlightenment ect. It leaves me in a place where I don't want to socialise with the people around me including my family because they just think TV, Facebook, money, ect. Any one else in a similar boat? 

[TruthSeeker]

probably everyone on this forum

[Sarah Marie]

@Algi Yep, I struggle with the lonely feelings too. But then I think about how much more lonely I feel when I'm around people who don't get me and I feel happier alone. I understand the heartbreak too. Hang in there, you're not alone feeling like this.

[Algi]

@Sarah_Flagg Thank you Sarah,  does your work involve a lot of socialising with people?

[Sarah Marie]

@Algi Nope, I work from home so unless I'm meeting with a client I don't socialize. 

[WickedIrish]

Algi, 

That loneliness is another thought I struggle with too.  

[Algi]

@Sarah_Flagg right, and what about friends&family ? I find it more frustrating to talk to them because they dismiss it or think you are crazy.  It's like talking to brick wall ha.

[Algi]

@WickedIrish The lack of comprehension from the people closest to you right?

[Sarah Marie]

@Algi Same here. I have one or two people I chat with online that are into personal development, aside from that Leo's videos were the only thing I had.

[Clay]

For whatever interests and hobbies you have, there is often a community you can find that shares those common interests, like this one! However, I understand the problem with your friends and family. You cannot forcefully change them; you can only tell them about your interests and then start to gravitate toward people who share those commonalities. If you want to socialize with people sharing these commonalities in person, I would suggest searching for groups on meetup.com and attending an event.

[Algi]

@Clay Curl Thank you for the advice, I will have a look at that website you shared! Think you are right, I am done explaining to others.

[WickedIrish]

I just posted this in my journal, Maybe you can relate.

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I have realized lately I express a need for agreement, even if it is agreeing that all the strange moments my mind ties to awareness moments as pure mania.

I have found my self obsessed with the thought, despite my increasing ability to push thoughts away. I wonder if I think I am having mania moments instead of clarity. I am afraid of progress, I tend to lean that they are lies part of a mania like dream I am creating as a distraction from my goals.

This leaves me feeling afraid and alone, that procrastination has finally caught up with me. I even wonder if my gains with summo ( which generally leave me sweating and warm) are in fact part of the mania and what I experience is a amplified version of fear that induces the sweating and perception of warmth.

I am aware the best course of action is a cold shower or a calming sensation to focus on. However I cant shake the feeling I am tricking myself or if I am just so fascinated with idea that it is a lie that I stall everything. I told myself the days of circling thoughts are over, but this is heavy on my mind. I feel the need to test my gains with summo with heat sensors, which i use for work, to confirm i am not crazy.

This need is overwhelming me, only focusing on body sensation helps me but it is difficult right now. I know this is just another thought keeping me grounded in my own personal hell. I want out, but I know I must let that need go. Even if I am full of mania, I know a calm mind makes better decisions.

I will test this summo mediation, but why do I need data to be happy? I feel the need to confirm or deny my sanity. Which when I think about it, has been present for a long time. I need to let the idea go or it will destroy my resolve on mediation. I am worried all my gains have been personal lies, where did all this confidence disappear too?

 

I reached out to several friends hours ago who mediate and they really helped me understand I am not alone in this struggle of keeping the calmness present.

I feel Algi that you too are seeking agreement, well let us agree then that we need no one but ourselves. Our resolve will make any experience bearable. Even the lost of a amazing girl, I can relate too that as well. You seem more confident than me, which I respect like none other. Use that confidence and find your resolve. 

Edited February 24, 2016 by WickedIrish

[Amplituda]

@Algi Perceiving some higher ideas doesn't mean you can't be understanding and compassionate about your family or friends interests, ideas and so on. You can realize they are on a different level from you and plant a seed for them to start looking at same things from a bit different perspective. No need for dramatic explanation to them how they are not body and mind but nothing more than nothingness. You can just point out to them things which help them to do next step in their life and have interesting discussion there as well.

I actually found to be more close to my family after raising my conciseness and could better feel them and find common topics for discussion.

[Water]

Dude, trust me you'll find better. I just recently went through the same thing except she constantly pushed me to become my greatest version. I didn't even know someone like that existed. Keep working on yourself and when the time comes to meet that girl you'll be ready. @Amplituda I agree, I've planted quite a few seeds in my family and friends. It's cool to watch them grow, but some just aren't ready for it. What you can do is demonstrate the effects of your hard work. I havnt gotten upset/angry in months, they picked up on that and it got them curious enough to start asking questions 

Edited February 25, 2016 by Water
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[Algi]

@WickedIrish @WickedIrish intersting story, the lack of comprehension. It sounds like you are very in touch with you spirit, and you may be not so far away from spiritual enlighment! Thanks for sharing! Confidence fluctuates depending on the day for me !:)

[Algi]

@Water thanks for the reply, you are right, I do believe the right one will come along. You know what with the planting seeds in my families heads would be something that I never did before. I just become impatient. I will give a go though

[Amplituda]

@Water There is not much you can do to demonstrate your hard work or prove to them anything. You're on 2 different levels. However, if you'll be understanding and fare to them they will appreciate and slowly grow next to you weather you want it or not. The key is not try to prove anything even though you might want it the most at times...Have fun, at some point you'll realize that they re like kids who need guidance, care and passion.

[Water]

15 hours ago, Algi said:

You know what with the planting seeds in my families heads would be something that I never did before. I just become impatient.

I can definitely relate. It's weird, even with all the personal development work you would think I would be more patient. In some ways I am but because this and a few other things is all I'm allowing myself to be around. I get really frustrated why people just don't get it. It feels like common sense but its the furthest thing from common . Plant your seeds carefully and strategically and walk away. They will sprout when they're ready.

 

15 hours ago, Amplituda said:

You're on 2 different levels. However, if you'll be understanding and fare to them they will appreciate and slowly grow next to you weather you want it or not.

I totally agree with you, but that doesn't work for everyone. Unfortunately some will be envious maybe even resent you. Communication is key.