Unconscious Decisions My Whole Life, Please Help.

[Cesar Alba]

Hi Ive been watching the videos since one year ago, and I find fascinating everything Leo is talkthing about, i almost find more sence in hes videos than any other bible, bagavahad ghita, psicollogy, etc. Look, eight months ago I left my house triggered by a very very tóxic problems happening in my family, i went to live with my father at Cancún, México. Hes works as a timeshare salesman an so do i, i invent this story that i made that desicion beacuse i wanted to travell to India, and i almost forgot the real reason, the problem is that i find my self taking these kind of decisions my Whole life, lol, im 20 but still my life is short, its running and i dont wnat to be like this my whole life!

i dont like selling timeshare, i mean, a part of me loves the part of manipulation, its gives my ego a very real sense of control, because sells, is that, manipulation and more manipulation, but at the time of reading and looking videos about enlightenment it makes me feel that i hate the kind of Job, in the last Months ive been achieving some things and the most great for me is my independncy from my father, i love to analize human mind and meaning of life, i know that the most important thing about life is becoming enlightened but, how am i supossed to do it if i have no plan, nothing clear in my mind, shit... Im so confused!

 

i have no career, nothing to loose, nothing to win at this moment, i need to make a decition, i want to change my life, but the question is wich way? I love music, writing, psicology, manipulation, but i need something that my true self tells me, gro for it, and actually do it, beacause my wholle life, ive been acting so unconcious, im sick of it, i need help please!

 

 

excuse my poor grammar.

 

Cesar from Mexico.

 

[Brian Greendahl]

Because you are young and have a vast economy of life ahead of you, I would encourage you to invest in
Leo's life purpose course or something similar, and allow yourself a bit of time to discover what it is your suited for. It's a small monetary investment but would require a little bit of time each day or week. It gives you some insight to yourself and what you really are capable of and what your limitations might be. Give yourself some time. Life is a journey, not a race. if you take the time now to do some honest self appraisal, you'll spare yourself from mistakes and regret down the road. Best of luck to you.

[Clay]

Similar to Brian's suggestion, you may need to self-evaluate your goals in order to find your right path.

Ask yourself: What is the ideal life you envision for yourself in the future?

Then also ask yourself: When you are an old man, looking back on your life, what kind of life would have wanted to live, so that you have little-to-no regrets on the life path you chose?

Thinking about these questions may steer you closer to the path you want and help you make good decisions for yourself.

[Cesar Alba]

That you very much guys.

Also, i want to say that, there is like an internal conflict betwen the latest Leos videos and me, for example i know that sex or girls are not going to fill this emptyness in me, but i still watch porn, i still desire so much being with a lot of women, money, power, succes, etc. All those external things are not going to give me that fullfillment but i still desire it, and the worst is that i am allready very lazy to pursue goals, but when i listen to all these new stuff Leos realising i my ego uses it to get me frozen and not do anything at all. I guess im to greña for this new kind of videos, but they seeme so true for me, any way, as Leo say, Believe him is useless, i have to expirience it, and i feel so far from that point.

[Dhana Choko]

You are getting there, just relax a little bit. Watch Leo's videos or whatever you feel called to, meditate, relax your mind. Your mind is on overdrive and you are trying to figure everything out so fast. Just breath...

[ThouartChris01]

@Cesar Alba I understand your situation entirely as I too am overcoming a similar scenario. I made the decision to go with my heart which meant taking risks toward an uncertain future. As Dhana Choko said, relax and breath, try different types of meditative practice. I've heard this [relax and breath] myself many times over the years because my mind runs 1000 miles per minute like yours, and really you're *allowing unnecessary stress to subdue your potential for success. Neurosis (watch the video over and over again if you have to). Question your thoughts in reference to destroying your knowledge graph, see what's there that can be trashed, lighten the load on your mind meter. When you've decided on what your life purpose is I do encourage taking that risk. You'll feel much better about yourself and where you're going. BEGIN TRUSTING YOURSELF.