Self Acceptance And The Need For Affection

[Ryan_047]

I'll start off with my questions regarding Leo's video about self-acceptance.In the first part of the visualization, we need to remember a strong feeling of love that we experienced in the past and re-experience it.My problem is that is really hard for me to keep that feeling stick during the practice.I experience it for like 2-3 minutes and then forget about it...On other hand,Leo says that we should offer love to the "negative" aspects of ourselves.He also says "Don't think how,just give it love"..This is really frustrating to me.I don't fucking know how.Yeah yeah,he said don't think how I give that aspect of myself love,but I got stuck during the visualization.By the way,isn't this practice some sort of shadow work?

Today I was sad and started craving for affection and approval more than I usually do.I just wished that somehow,someway someone would see my suffering and then hug, accept,understand and give affection to me.Right after that,I imagined a fantasy of how that would happen,and I've had strong goosebumps and also started to cry for a bit.I would like to talk about my feelings with someone face to face,but I am afraid to death to do that.I don't know any person who would understand me,and I can't reach out to a therapist for objective reasons.

I should add that I experience anxiety(my anxiety comes from lack of self-esteem) often.It ruins my life,and if somehow I would get rid of it my life would be a lot smoother.I am meditating and doing affirmations daily,but they don't directly help with my anxiety.Is the practice above helpful for anxiety?Please tell me if you are currently doing it/have done it and your experiences with it.

[LaucherJunge]

Show respect to your suffering, to your negative aspects and stop resisting them. Invite them to join your 2-3 minute experience of love. Find the positive side of your negative aspects, because in the end this contrast is an illusion. Your mind makes negative and positive up, both have qualities of the opposite even looking from "low"-dimensional truth.

[Elton]

@Ryan_047

10 hours ago, LaucherJunge said:

 

 

11 hours ago, Ryan_047 said:

My problem is that is really hard for me to keep that feeling stick during the practice.I experience it for like 2-3 minutes and then forget about it.....This is really frustrating to me.I don't fucking know how.Yeah yeah,he said don't think how I give that aspect of myself love,but I got stuck during the visualization.By the way,isn't this practice some sort of shadow work?

Today I was sad and started craving for affection and approval more than I usually do.I just wished that somehow,someway someone would see my suffering and then hug, accept,understand and give affection to me.Right after that,I imagined a fantasy of how that would happen,and I've had strong goosebumps and also started to cry for a bit.I would like to talk about my feelings with someone face to face,but I am afraid to death to do that.I don't know any person who would understand me,and I can't reach out to a therapist for objective reasons.

I should add that I experience anxiety(my anxiety comes from lack of self-esteem) often.It ruins my life,and if somehow I would get rid of it my life would be a lot smoother.I am meditating and doing affirmations daily,but they don't directly help with my anxiety.

Accept this part too..