Kundalini Awakening? My Reality Has Been Flipped On It's Head.

[Iksander]

I've been doing deep meditation and contemplation work for a while now, and a couple of months ago some weird shit started to happen. Parts of my body would tense on their own, seeing bright colours etc. but this is nothing super out of the ordinary for people who do consciousness work.

 

The past week my meditation has gone to a completely new level for me, seeing strange visions, both horrific and beautiful and i'm getting some conscious understanding of nonduality. I've also been having very vivid dreams at night.   

 

Last night though, my reality got flipped on it's head completely. I had an hour of kundalini yoga earlier in the day and I sat down to do an hour of meditation. I immediately went deep and being present to the moment was effortless and my mind seemed to just  melt away. Then I started seeing some vivid images of faces, grotesque looking creatures, demonic looking entities, and beautiful creatures too. Some time passed and then I saw to creatures that I could only described as fairies and they were building me wings. Normally my mind would be going 'what the fuck' but I was in complete awe and was at a level of consciousness where everything made sense. I started to feel a spinning above my head and came to realize that it was a halo. I was being told that I was divine. (note I have never been a religious person in my life, or believed in anything supernatural before). After I finished meditating I was on a meditative high and was a bit blown away. However, this is where the seriously weird shit happened. 

 

About 20 minutes after my meditation I started to get the uncontrollable muscle tensions in my body. This only happened in meditation before. They slowly started getting stronger and stronger and were happening all over my body, my arm would tense up and move on it's own, my jaw would clench and move around etc. my whole body was just doing whatever the fuck it wanted and I had no control. Then I started masturbating, but it felt like someone else was doing it because I has such small control over my own body. My body or whatever was controlling my body intuitively knew what to do, and even put my finger up my asshole, something I have never done before and usually would absolutely not do. (Sorry for the explicit detail, but all of this really happened  to me and I want to be completely honest about it, I hope you aren't eating whilst reading this lol). My body was still moving on it's own after this and I became very warn out, like all the energy was being sucked out of me. I tried to sleep but couldn't my body felt so strange and my whole understanding of the reality wasn't the same and I don't think ever will be again. As of writing this it's the following day and i'm extremely worn out physically. My consciousness is not the same and everything looks different to me now, I am not panicking but I am bewildered by this experience. 

 

After research it sounds like a Kundalini awakening , but if anyone has any information, insight or has had a similar experience then I would love to know what you think of all this, I don't think I will ever be the same again. 

[Martin123]

@Iksander congratulations on your experience.

It doesn’t sound like kundalini awoke.

If it did:

1. Do you feel energy movement throughout your body 24/7?

2. Does this energy feel like a light orgasm?

 

Kundalini awakening is a permanent change within your nervous system and a start of an irreversible proggressive ego anihilation.

What yours sounds like is a one-time energetic release. 

[Iksander]

10 minutes ago, Martin123 said:

@Iksander congratulations on your experience.

It doesn’t sound like kundalini awoke.

If it did:

1. Do you feel energy movement throughout your body 24/7?

2. Does this energy feel like a light orgasm?

 

Kundalini awakening is a permanent change within your nervous system and a start of an irreversible proggressive ego anihilation.

What yours sounds like is a one-time energetic release. 

Thanks for the response.

I do not feel energy movement throughout my body 24/7 today it is on and off, or at least that's the only way I can describe it. Parts of my body are tensing and moving on their own but not constantly, and I can freely move around now for the most part.

The biggest change is the change in my consciousness, my perception of everything is different, small things that would annoy me are not annoying me at all and I feel somewhat detached from everything, but not in a negative way. 

It doesn't sound quite like a kundalini awakening as you describe it, but it also doesn't feel like a one time energy release because I am still feeling effects now. Now I am even more confused!

[Martin123]

@Iksander Dont worry about analyzing it too much. Its quite alright not to know what exactly is going on.

Unless it gets of course unbearable but it doesn’t sound like that from your description. These things will happen and sometimes it will make total sense, and sometimes it won’t.

And that’s great. It is an invitation to cultivate faith that thw potential of your counsciousness is being fulfilled.

[Wes Thoughts]

On 10/14/2017 at 6:00 AM, Iksander said:

Then I started masturbating, but it felt like someone else was doing it because I has such small control over my own body. My body or whatever was controlling my body intuitively knew what to do, and even put my finger up my asshole, something I have never done before and usually would absolutely not do.

I am sorry but I LOL'd from this for about 20 minutes straight! You gotta admit the mental image of this happening is hilarious.

Totally thought you were trolling at first but I guess not.

[Leo Gura]

@Iksander Just added a book about kundalini awakening to my book list.

[Colin]

@Iksander The only thing comparable I have to add is that one time I was meditating in a dark room and, not really meditating, but intuitively "flexing" my energy to the point where I was starting to sweat lightly and randomly a burst of "energy" shot up from the bottom of my spine and went  in to the back of my head and I was catapulted to another "realm" briefly. It was a full-blown psychedelic space. I shut it down quickly though cause I was scared.