Ive Forgotten My Passion

[Will]

Just noticed today that I cant put my finger on my passion in life..

I have started Leos life purpose course and still working way through that. But for some reason I feel these days I have no passion. also i feel I am unsure of my fears..

I document things

I watch a tonne of content

I try to capture thoughts and ideas, 

I even practice several times daily trying to experience at some level my true self.

Probably the only thing that is growing for me is my feeling that I dont get it..

I am not sure what I am, I am not sure if I am going in the right direction. I thought I would at least have more passion.

Also I have just started noticing that I have this feeling that allot of other normal people who I imagine are not doing this actualizing work are just better than me somehow. Which is a bit of a worry.. I feel as though so many people are doing better than me in life in general without all this introspective work..

I am trying to justify it by saying that I am growing on the inside, But that is not helping at all..

 

hmm

I imagined the more I focused on breaking down my ego and the more i concentrated on erasing misconceptions about my physical reality, the clearer i would get..

I guess not..

Does anybody else have this same type of feeling??

 

[Electron]

You won't get it there just by self introspection. Passion means a sense of love for something. And to love something you need to develop love for that thing, not meditate. So all you gotta do is fall in love, and to fall in love you need to see the beauty of that thing, and to see the beauty of that thing you need to condition your judgements about that thing in a healthy way. To tell you the truth, you can literally pick any random thing and develop a strong love for that by conditioning your mind about that thing. 

[Will]

 Hmm, 

confused now..

Seems like I am trying to do two opposing tasks,

Self actualise by breaking down misconceptions about This reality.

And

Trying to live a more passionate purposeful successful life..

Is this like a chicken and the egg thing.

Would I do one to reach the other. Can I do both?

I agree that I could lterally pick anything and go with it.. 

similar to dating girls.. My mind justifies i should be able to love any girl, but iot never quite works out that way in reality..

Somewhat raises more questions , 

Conditioning judgements in a healthy way!!??

I have a feeling that if I dig deep into myself and do some self inquiry I might come into contact with a deeper more beautiful part of life.

Or is it the deeper I go The more I realise I am just part of the one tapestry of life and void of my own expression..

.....

hmmmm.

maybe I should sleep on it a bit.

 

 

[Electron]

@WillYou are stuck in the enigma of choices. You might be using choices as an excuse not to choose any one thing and putting your effort and time in mastering that thing. You gotta go with something. Your love will grow gradually for that thing. Love won't come to you first and kick you in the ass to work on that thing. How can you love something before literally hanging out with it and understanding it? If somehow you are able to develop a sense of love beforehand, its probably a fiction, or a love for something else which that thing is not, which might make you not like that thing first when you really experience it for real as you were in love with something else. That's why there is a little bit of grind at the start which you need to overcome before you really start to appreciate that thing for what it really is.

Edited February 22, 2016 by Sigma

[Draconis Chaser]

@Sigma Damn, dude! You are GOOD! 

[Electron]

[Will]

On 22/02/2016 at 9:20 PM, Sigma said:

So all you gotta do is fall in love, and to fall in love you need to see the beauty of that thing, and to see the beauty of that thing you need to condition your judgements about that thing in a healthy way.

So using my mind constructively and consciously. ??

I am pretty cautious at using the word contructively.. It implies I have any clue on what will be benefitial for me in the long run.. PS i have no idea what will really be benefitial for me in the long run..

I am still having some difficulty understanding how constructing new judgements  can keep you unbiased. I am currently under the assumption that the more in touch with "what is? and the "true..  in the moment ..nature of things", the more beautiful they become..??

I thought the idea was to get rid of judgements..??

 

Thanks for your views..!!

[step1]

I agree with what sigma is saying but also,

On ‎22‎/‎02‎/‎2016 at 1:20 PM, Sigma said:

You won't get it there just by self introspection. Passion means a sense of love for something. And to love something you need to develop love for that thing, not meditate. So all you gotta do is fall in love, and to fall in love you need to see the beauty of that thing, and to see the beauty of that thing you need to condition your judgements about that thing in a healthy way. To tell you the truth, you can literally pick any random thing and develop a strong love for that by conditioning your mind about that thing. 

How can you create healthy judgements without working to minimize the ego? 

My ego was huge.  I spent the last 10 years chasing things I thought I wanted only to find it was ego that wanted this.  Only after spending time meditating have I begun to see my better direction.

[Electron]

@step1 Identification with the judgements is the real problem. Dissolving the ego is amazing and will be very helpful to anyone. This is just a temporary solution while you are still identifying. 

[step1]

31 minutes ago, Sigma said:

@step1 Identification with the judgements is the real problem. Dissolving the ego is amazing and will be very helpful to anyone. This is just a temporary solution while you are still identifying. 

I am not sure I understand what you mean...

[IvanJohn]

On 2/24/2016 at 9:33 AM, Will said:

So using my mind constructively and consciously. ??

I am pretty cautious at using the word contructively.. It implies I have any clue on what will be benefitial for me in the long run.. PS i have no idea what will really be benefitial for me in the long run..

I am still having some difficulty understanding how constructing new judgements  can keep you unbiased. I am currently under the assumption that the more in touch with "what is? and the "true..  in the moment ..nature of things", the more beautiful they become..??

I thought the idea was to get rid of judgements..??

 

Thanks for your views..!!

 

Time will tell what's beneficial for You if You're not seeing it now, from what I'm reading got the feeling You're biased by not being biased, let's not overthink the matter, as it only brings what's called analysis-paralysis, I'm seeing in You a similar experience that I've had;

Couple of years ago when I started getting into self development very abruptly I had similar thoughts like You described in Your first post, and I was overwhelmed with all the information in the form of data from various sources, while in the same time feeling that I've got to live up to the more-than-perfect standards of behaviour / thought, the real deal is when I was able to be less cautious about this and let go of "trying" to live up to the standards I was biased to set for myself based on the teachings of other people. It could be called, finding Yourself.

This happened with time and I learned to more clearly present to myself the information I was consuming, avoid being overwhelmed with data and information and move to the place of knowledge and wisdom, these stuff I did with the more unlikely (at the time these stuff seemed very unlikely to get me to the place I was wanting to go to better understand - hence a mental excercise or so I thought) and some of these stuff were;

• Excercise
• Dance
• Nutrition
• Interpersonal relationships

Basically what I'm suggesting is starting something new, try a dance lesson, try a new cuisine, improve a relationship with someone in and out of family and work up those neural pathways, possibly the best way to do this is to stop reading self-help for a day or a couple and try one of these, a couple of new things brings freshness in one's life, and more importaintly makes one remember not to take everything too seriously by stepping out of one's comfort zone.

 

So the grand finale;

What are You wanting to understand about judgement or about Yourself?

or

What are You wanting to understand about making Yourself laugh and feel good?

 

[Leo Gura]

Sounds like you simply need to keep following the right principles and be patient. This stuff takes months and years to fully blossom. You gotta be very committed and patient. Trust that following proper psychological principles will eventually lead to gold.

Just because you don't have a passion today, doesn't mean you won't have one 12 months from now after putting in the groundwork.

Keep the faith and carry on.