Monday Motions

[Will]

Good morning monday!

Spent a weekend of being somewhat normal, taking daughter to dancing, Wakeboarding with friends. eating sleeping and being merry.

Not much actualizing here.

There is some thought to this type of life getting in the way of being the best I can be.

I justified it away by saying that that spending time with my family and freineds is important top me.. Hmm.. I better be carefull that this is actually on the top 10 of my values..

Actually good to be back to work. I drive all day so its a great chance to listen to all the greatest videos I can find on whatever is important to me.

If I have something I want to remember later or I have a good idea i want to capture. I found that using the audio recorder on my phone is a great quick convenient way of at least capturing it. although I have not downloaded any of them yet..

These days is just about getting used to the terminology of self improvement and getting inspired and starting some habbits that will help to keep me on track.

That is.

• do some mindful planning  and being grateful of day ahead
• keep  conscious of thoughts and feelings throughout the day
• label thoughts
• some consideration to my thoughts and actions throughout my day
• Try and catch myself doing something I would normally do automatically
• Listen and be inspired and educated by others
• capture my thoughts and questions and ideas
• think at least once a day about how this life is not permanent and very short
• try a bit each day to understand that I am not  my body or my thoughts ect.
• do some kind of reflection or some journalling before bed

 

what inevitably is happening is that if I do all these things each days i have a few lists that i change and update.

I cant perceive any traction or any noticeable improvement in my life, but that may be similar to when you see someone day in day out, you only notice a change after a few months.

Big questions and or learnings from today are

• how come I dont have a hugely obvious passion in my life
• Not sure of what my big fears are
• I get the feeling I am only doing menial things
• I mostly feel others are doing better than me in life, more confident more money, more knowledge on life or being social and marriage

I tried hard today to

• realise that anything I could think feel or conceptualize was not what I was and hopefully that would help me to find my true self.

 

well,

I am here typing this now and thinking today was ok, at l;east a small step in the right direction. I could definately do better. I guess I can build this into my plan each night and see how that goes..

 

Time to sign off

For now .. I am, You are, all is..