Is This Self Doubt?

[Alexo45]

Hello,

i've been through a long time of shadow work and resolved most of my personal problems, except for one, which is self doubt ( at least that's my guess ).
Theres been several times that i'm catching myself being scared to fail, or doubting my own ability to do things, which results in taking no action at all. 

 

For example:

1) i'm browsing for a job online, skimming through some vacancies. As soon as i get one that might fit me, i'm starting to doubt myself, being scared that i'm probably not going to be hired, or that i'm not able to do the job as it should be done, which results in not applying. 

i've tried thinking back at my past successful applications, but it's not giving me the confidence to simply do the things i should do. Something is holding me back from taking action, and i don't know what it is. 

 

2) i'm thinking about joining university. After skimming through the website of my preferred university and talking with some people over there, i'm scared that i might fail university, or that i'm not smart enough. This results in taking no action at all.

Even after succeeding in several online test examinations, i'm still doubting my ability to succeed university. I feel like i'm scared to give it my all, and in a way i'm also scared of success.

 

With this in mind, i've always done a great job in anything i undertook in the past. I don't know why this is happening, but it's the main thing holding me back from succeeding and progressing in life i feel.

What are your thoughts on this? 

 

 

[Spiral]

Try it, If you fail at least you tried.

[General 2]

@Alexo45 i know this feeling of perfectionism can be quite overwhelming

i think you've got to get prepared to accept who you are in any situations, didn't make the desired thing - think "the hell with that" and learn from the situation to try even better. just try to perceive anything that happens as a journey of a human being evolving, including step backs

remember, this is not always the smartest people who finish universities and take nice jobs. in fact some of them are, but they are not you, so why would you bother? the world is way too complicated for you to predict everything, how would you know you're not going to get hired just because you think you're not good enough etc?

[Nahm]

On 9/26/2017 at 9:40 AM, Alexo45 said:

Hello,

i've been through a long time of shadow work and resolved most of my personal problems, except for one, which is self doubt ( at least that's my guess ).
Theres been several times that i'm catching myself being scared to fail, or doubting my own ability to do things, which results in taking no action at all. 

 

For example:

1) i'm browsing for a job online, skimming through some vacancies. As soon as i get one that might fit me, i'm starting to doubt myself, being scared that i'm probably not going to be hired, or that i'm not able to do the job as it should be done, which results in not applying. 

i've tried thinking back at my past successful applications, but it's not giving me the confidence to simply do the things i should do. Something is holding me back from taking action, and i don't know what it is. 

 

2) i'm thinking about joining university. After skimming through the website of my preferred university and talking with some people over there, i'm scared that i might fail university, or that i'm not smart enough. This results in taking no action at all.

Even after succeeding in several online test examinations, i'm still doubting my ability to succeed university. I feel like i'm scared to give it my all, and in a way i'm also scared of success.

 

With this in mind, i've always done a great job in anything i undertook in the past. I don't know why this is happening, but it's the main thing holding me back from succeeding and progressing in life i feel.

What are your thoughts on this? 

 

 

You're experiencing the thought tree you planted.  Plant a new one by writing it down and taping it on the wall. Let it be that simple. You can't see a seed while it's in the ground. Water it. Shed light on it. Be patient and know it will grow. You CAN do it because you're fucking awesome Alex (Alexo?)