How Can Self Actualization Help Me With My Ocd?

[sohila]

i used to have religous and sexual thoughts OCD from 2013  to  early 2017 with ups and dawns , by accident while i'm searching for  some vedios on youtube  about the word " neurosis " which my director told me it is  the problem of a charachter i was acting in collage theatre  2 months ago ,  it  was really a very hard time to me ,   i was drawn into depression , fear , anexity , , stress , bad health and  very very negative thoughts    and i think   theatre was trying to  help me  , while i was  doing this research  i found my graetest shock ever , like some one has come with an axe and hit me on my head to be concious of what was going around me , oh yes it was leo  with his super  super super important vedio " 40 signs that you are neurotic " and it was the first time to me know the meaning of this word and my reality of being neurotic  so i started to watch actualized.org  from this time till  now and really i can't even describe how much grawn i became in this very short time  and i'm watching my self everyday trying to learn new skills , only being a good abserver to my self helps me a lot 

by the way i visited a psychiatrist in the beginings of my OCD and the last time was nearly 5  months ago since my last attack   , he brescribed   antidepressants  but  they did nothing to me and finally after years  i realized that being busy is the best cure for my case , in the same time self actualization inquires not to be busy so what am i supposed to do ? 

now  i want to know ;

 how can self actualization help me to not come back to my OCD ?

is conciousness alone is curative in my case ?

how to know about my insecurities which  absolutely o of them are my relation to god and sex !

is there any books . courses to help me understand OCD more ?

thank you 

 

 

[Amit]

Thinking it, won't resolve it. You have to be present with the feeling of it and when you just be with it, Ask... If you can let it go, if you don't know who you are, try enlightenment practices. You will be free from all the pain.