Strength Never Leaves

[Arkandeus]

it hit me today, I have lost a lot of weight over the past month after not really caring anymore about appearances and trying to maintain some ideal weight.

so here I am, much more skinnier then before, and as a man, I have this feeling of weakness streaming over me.
I remember the feeling of a body that is more heavier, that feels more powerful in some way, more safe, and here I am now...skinny, more fragile.

I'm bathing in this feeling of weakness and it hits me, the violence of feeling so weak, the sheer intensity of it, I recognize how powerful it is.
it is the exact same power that made feel so solid and stable when I was heavier. except now I see being skinny as something weak and so I feel the edge of my own power returned against me.

but it's still there.I can still feel it.
one cannot be without power. if you feel inferior towards others you are feeling the intensity of your own powers returned against you,
everything happens inside you.
if you feel shy, you feel how powerful you are, if you feel unconfident, feel the violence of that lack of confidence, that is your confidence, that is your power.

if you feel ugly, feel the rawness of it, that is your own beauty returned against you.
take comfort in how powerful you are. there is always proof of your power. you can never be without power
whether you feel good or bad, the bad is as much a testament of your power as the good, if you can feel horrible, you can feel magnificent.
take everything as a clue towards your own empowerment.
how we feel is really up to us to decide, and for that we have to take responsibility for how we feel.

but above all, your power is always there with you, if you feel good, you feel it, if you feel bad, you feel it just as intensely.

 

[Visionary]

Powerful bruv. Focusing on the magnitude of that energy (without the label). Good shit.

[Arkandeus]

I want to add that the feeling of weakness over being skinny has left.
as soon as I realized it was my own power, that that feeling was illusory, it left, faded away