Embarrassing Situation...

[Truth Seekah]

5 hours ago, Fuse said:

I have this thought always with me that I'm basically screwed.

But the question is why you believe in this stupid thoughts->

Positive or negative self-talking and positive or negative talking between two people are one and the same. 

Don't take opinions from your mind and others seriously->

 

6 hours ago, Fuse said:

depressed and hopeless

This happens when you believe in your thoughts->

 

[smd]

@Fuse I see a lot of folks are offering you the spiritual things but I think you really need to take care of First Things First, and get the basics out of the way.  How can you be a productive member of society without any money?

Try it like this:

1.)  Get a job

I met & made friends with a lot of people, of different ages, from minimum wage jobs.  It was a very rewarding experience.  They're all in the same boat as you so no one there is going to call you a loser.  You just go up from there.

From the job, you may meet some women interested in you & date them.   I did!

2.)  Save your cash where possible.  Outside of paying for bills, use your savings to invest in yourself: community college, online courses, books, seminars, all of the things Leo talks about (Get Leo's Life Purpose course & learn it & read all the books!).

Naturally, you can include a meditation practice, but I see that as putting the cart before the horse.  You're not going to get anywhere!

You need to be building a foundation & finding what drives you.  You've already been loafing around for years, in your own words, doing nothing. Trying to do nothing more constructively, is still nothing.  Or are you aspiring to become a monk at 19 years old?

My personal opinion is that you need practical self-development for 10 years.

[Fuse]

@smd I appreciate your response, since it is done with a more real world approach in mind.

When you say find what drives me, what exactly do you mean though? I have passion, and a fairly concrete idea of where I want to be in life, which is taking me time to develop as I explore myself. The problem for me is mainly stuff like what I said in my first post distracting me, robbing me of my energy and time, ruining my mind and making me feel like a loser. 

I am certainly not aspiring to be a monk at 19 years old, not even sure where to begin with that. 

[smd]

@Fuse What drives you, as in, what are you curious about in the world?  Doesn't anything interest you?  When I was your age, I was fascinated by fantasy, science fiction, horror, women, social status, financial investing, the future, playing a musical instrument, & so on.  I wanted to know a great deal about so many things & find out if I could use them & excel at them...

Also, all of the same sexual distractions existed in the past too, even without free Internet porn...more like 8-hour long VHS tapes passed around by your friends or relatives, or getting porn DVDs in the adult section of rental stores.  We used to watch them in a living room as a group & drink beer & make silly-ass comments about what we were seeing.

Aside from saving up & getting Leo's LP course & getting a basic job, you probably just need to force yourself to take action.  At this point, any action at all is a step in the right direction.  The easiest action of course is going out & trying to get a job at a store or restaurant, just to get yourself moving & doing something.  At some point, sooner or later, you'll develop some ideas on what you need or desire, and get out of this rut you're in & your current rut will seem like an ancient memory.

[Fuse]

@smd A lot of things interest me.

I already a have a pretty good of idea of what I want in life, the problem isn't so much not wanting anything or not wanting to be anywhere but more like having no energy, feeling too lazy and scared to do anything about it.

I guess forcing myself is a good option, probably my only option. I'm even scared of doing that though in case I end up taking some stupid action which makes everything even worse.