Dont Want Anything From Life

[BADON]

Im 28 years old.

I suffered from depression and anhedonia.

I tried a lot of pills, psychologists conversation and nothing...

I am living like a robot - Goind to my dead end job and then going back home to do nothing.

Don't want to do anything- no watching tv series, no sport, no meeting friends, no women...

Nothing!

I'll start the actualized course before 8 month , but I don't have enough motivation to do so...

I don't know what to do...

I don't have any desire... Or goal... Nothing ,just nothing...

 

[Richard Alpert]

You are just becoming intelligent.

You have realized no money or women or job will make you fullfilled.

There must be something you have enjoyed doing in youre life? What did you do when you were a kid?

And try to not piss yourself off. Life is a silly game, but why not play it before going to graveyard.

[ajasatya]

1 hour ago, BADON said:

I don't have any desire... Or goal... Nothing ,just nothing...

you seem to have some traits of a zen master, but you lack the main ones: presence, contentment and wisdom.

why don't you search for a zen sangha near you? the practice of zazen may heal your disgust for life. that's what i did and it works.

[Truth]

1 hour ago, BADON said:

Im 28 years old.

I suffered from depression and anhedonia.

I tried a lot of pills, psychologists conversation and nothing...

I am living like a robot - Goind to my dead end job and then going back home to do nothing.

Don't want to do anything- no watching tv series, no sport, no meeting friends, no women...

Nothing!

I'll start the actualized course before 8 month , but I don't have enough motivation to do so...

I don't know what to do...

I don't have any desire... Or goal... Nothing ,just nothing...

 

Possible Nihilism? I really think spending time sitting down and journaling and questioning this feeling would be a  really good idea. 

Edited August 1, 2017 by Truth