The Here And Now Feels "outside" Of Me

[Vitamine Water]

A little context: I am 20 years old, I meditate on a daily basis, roughly 40/50 minutes per session since march 2016.

 

I've recently become more interested in contemplating and enquiring the nature of things. A very familiar feeling while meditating, is the feeling of pressence, the feeling of being "in the now". For me this is a very calm, relaxing, innocent and silent "state". The thing is, whenever I become aware of this, it feels as if the awareness automatically focusses one the space outside of my body (especially a few meters in front of me), therefore making it a very spacious "feeling". I then become aware of the fact that it is perceived in me, in my body. This creates an overall dual state.

 

I was wondering if you guys have any input in this, and if possible, some tips to help me investigate this. Is it my being? Is it awareness itself? Is it infinity? Is it an elephant eating a strawberry on a surfboard? My direct experience tells me "it" just is. But somehow nothing of the above. I don't feel that yet. It's only the awareness of now. This moment. I don't really connect with it so to speak. 

 

Something also tells me to just let it be as it is. To keep it simple. I guess it's just the mind trying to understand the Unknown. 

 

Cheers and love to all of you! <3

 

[ajasatya]

3 hours ago, Vitamine Water said:

Something also tells me to just let it be as it is. To keep it simple. I guess it's just the mind trying to understand the Unknown.

very good. excellent