I Am Addicted To My Life !?

[Jonson]

I got a camera and i began making some vlogs (talking with friends)...then i watched the videos and realized ...how much  I love myself...,my life.... and everything  and i feel like i just don't want life to pass ... i am addicted to every second of my life , when i think about  my past,my childhood ,i look at old photos ,videos ... i feel very nostalgic and happy and there are things,happenings that i don't remember... I DON'T WANT MY LIFE,MY EMOTIONS TO BE FORGOTTEN , I WOULD WANT TO HAVE EVERY SINGLE BEAUTIFUL MOMENT OF MY LIFE RECORDED . (i don't know why i got this feeling right now) Sometimes when i shoot videos i feel like it's boring .... and then i watch the video a few days after ... and i am like wooooow ... it was an amazing experience and it's all ok and i feel nostalgic and happy about it :))) It feels like i lost a piece of my life , that i can't get back ... it's gone ...  I want keep all my emotions....Do you ever feel like this?

Edited June 30, 2017 by Jonson

[Adam M]

@Jonson you're going to die very soon...enjoy your life in the moment while you can but don't spend too much time clinging to sensations.  The Buddha teaches us that

• Everything changes, nothing is permanent
• Sensations don't satisfy you
• Sensations are not you

I love my life too and I wish it would never end.  But it will end and that's what makes it special.  Spend your time in the moment just being  

Your post is very upbringing compared to people talking about how they hate their life.  Good for you! Life is beautiful

[krazzer]

@Jonson It sounds like you are very attached to your own life. And you life very much in the past. 

If you could let that go I believe a huge burden would fall off your shoulders.

I would suggest reading the the power of now if you haven't already:
https://www.amazon.com/Power-Now-Guide-Spiritual-Enlightenment/dp/1577314808