Obe Report

[Meretagh]

I feel like this is worth posting about just because of how spontaneous and trivial action led into a relatively big experience.
REPORT:
After 20 minutes of do nothing meditation I went on my couch and ate a bowl of honeyed oatmeal. It was 9 pm and I was very tired. I started feflecting on how stressful the day was and some wrongdoings from others. Then I started staring at things, having this feeling like I just woke up and that a bit like I don't really know where I am and such - which is not too uncommon for me. Then I closed my eyes, laid my head back and started to look at the blackness before my eyes.
I looked at it as a whole, at its center, at its 'borders'. After some time (maybe 10 minutes) I started feeling this specific feeling that the blackness is extremely small and extremely huge at the same time (what I just described is common experience for normal people, especially before falling asleep, here people wrote about it).
I gradually started feeling like bigger and bigger field of awareness. Sometimes there was a 'pull' of enormous space in some direction, usually behind my head.
After some more time the peak expereince happened - I felt my body disintegrating, rather quickly, and it scared me, but I was telling myself to calm down and surrender to it and that I don't care, if I die (I even wanted to but also felt sad for leaving my story here). My body started shaking and I started breathing fast and deep. I (or the body) was getting ridiculusly tiny while my awareness (or I) expanded extremely, as if into the whole universe. Throughout this there were feelings of euphoria, unimportance of 'my life', laughing at the way I percieve life, ceaseation of time and sort of feeling like I'm the things in the room I was in. At the same time I still had thoughts and heards sounds around me - but maybe not at the very peak. Then it just went away, not by me doing anything - it just wore off.

It seems strange, that this happened, because right now I have a terrible lifestyle and am more unconscious than usually, even dropped daily meditation from 60 to 20 minutes.
Though this seemed very radical to me, the everyday life after the experience seemed to not change almost at all.
Btw when in the past I inquired into 'what do I want right now', the deepest answer was 'to become a peaceful, energetic white light' - and at points this experience kind of seemed to be reaching that.

I plan on trying this 'technique' more over the following days, so if I get more experiences like this I will post them in reply. Hope this hleps somehow

[krazzer]

@Meretagh I've had a similar experience like that a few times. Like there was an extreme distance between me and the world. Anything visual appeared to me like it's very small and very far away. This happened indeed when looking with my whole being to the blackness of my eyes.

I think it might have something to do with the eyes focusing on something very close, or very far away, while having the eyelids closed.

I might try this some more again, thanks for sharing.

[Mastral]

@Meretagh Oatmeal trips can be quite intense!

Please do let us know what happens next. I'm interested in the relationship between enlightment/illusion of self and OBEs. Myself I'm practicing with Hemi Sync and M. Raduga's indirect method.

[Meretagh]

@Mastral Yeah well tommorow I'm planning on doing 75 gram raw millet... not sure if oral or rectal administration though. Do you guys know where in Europe I could get some rice ?