Seek Within

[Shin]

It's simple, the more you'll dig deep within, the more you'll realize this simple truth.

 

 

 

 

So next time you'll be on the cushion, try to simply go deeper and deeper into yourself.
Be totally uninterested in what your thoughts may come up with, and just go within.

At first you will try to sense your belly, and you will only sense that for a while (that's ok).
Then you will feel your all body, slowly starting to fade with every other perceptions around you.
After some time, you will go into a zone of full awareness, only aware of itself.
The last part is when you totally black out, there is nothing, literally nothing, and this is when it happens.

(It is probably easier to do this in a really quiet room, but that's not necessary)

When you're in the "void zone", time doesn't exist anymore, it is like deep sleep in a sense (even though it's a bit different)

Two things can happen, either time will fly by extremely fast and you'll "wake up" 5 to 30 or even an hour after.
Or an intense suffering will come up and you will instantly flee from it.
You will fail many times because you will believe this suffering is real.

What you will discover after many tries, is that the suffering is just your mind being confused about what it's discovering.
Your mind think it is something separate from the whole, in its ignorance it tries to fight back against anything that doesn't make sense to it.

The mind has created an identity from every bit of information it has incorporated in the brain, and since you actually think you are the brain (or the mind), every information that you think are true, forms what we call the "ego", which is nothing else than a collection of beliefs/thoughts.
These beliefs are nothing else than a perspective, and the funny part is that everytime a different perspective is presented to you, you instantly bend one of your belief to fit yours, or you simply refuse to believe anything else and fight back one way or another.

The mind is really a master to make himself believe it is those beliefs/thoughts.
Worst than that, It make itself believe it is a unique being which is described by all those beliefs ...

That's true for everything in your life, every time something triggers you, you can be sure there is ignorance there.
Suffering only comes from a misconception of your true identity, negative emotions can only occurs when you lost your link to reality.

There is a shorcut, and it's self-inquiry, self-inquiry and this kind of meditation that I'm talking about.
Now I'm not saying this meditation is the only one to produce this experience, it's probably not the case at all, I can only talk about my experience

What you will discover, after countless tries, is what is drawn above, which will translate into:

- An infinite spaciousness in your sense of self, everything is hollow
- You literally don't give a fuck about everything, nothing can shake you, you feel invincible.

- An infinite spaciousness in your sense of self, you are everyone and everything, you are infinite.
- An intimacy that is beyond everything that you ever experienced, infinite love, for everything and everyone.

You may experience only partially feel these effects at first, that's totally normal and it's explained here.

 

JUST DO IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Edited June 4, 2017 by Shin

[Real Eyes]

Thanks for another great post Shin.   

[nightrider1435]

Your words always hit home with me. Confused as fuck here but I'm learning more everyday. 

[Shin]

2 minutes ago, nightrider1435 said:

Your words always hit home with me. Confused as fuck here but I'm learning more everyday. 

[phoenix666]

whenever I plan to do inner work I feel myself running away from it.. I distract myself with studying and accumulating knowledge. thanks for the inspiration! I guess there is no other way around it... I have to face myself. I am so confused and afraid. But admitting it actually already helps.

[nightrider1435]

@phoenix666 I feel you, I'm the same way. Confused and terrified, it's ok though. Use this forum to your advantage, we all want to help each other out here.

Edited June 4, 2017 by nightrider1435

[phoenix666]

8 minutes ago, nightrider1435 said:

@phoenix666 I feel you, I'm the same way. Confused and terrified, it's ok though. Use this forum to your advantage, we all want to help each other out here.

I started watching actualized.org two years ago, starting my self actualization journey. I've also been reading on the forum for a while.... I had the suspicion that reading and writing on the forum could be another form of distraction.. but finally, after a mind-blowing mushroom trip I noticed that writing things down helped me sorting things out in my messy, fucked up head. 

thank you for your kind words, I really think like-minded people here can in fact help each other a lot  

[Shin]

Fear is good.

If you can face your fear and see what's beyond, this is what will awaken you the fastest.
One of the best exercice is to face your fears even before confronting them, looking deeply into them.
It's scary, but if you can do it once, you'll realize it's all a joke ...

 

Edited June 4, 2017 by Shin

[Max_V]

Real awesome post. I can resonate with what you said about suffering . Everytime I get to this deep rooted peace and I  become aware of the fact that I don't know who I am, I get hit with so much fear that I almost get a panic attack