Need Help Explaining This...

[Sarah Marie]

1 minute ago, Leo Gura said:

Hehehe...

That's because YOU ARE NOT HUMAN!

What you're experiencing is Spirit, AKA consciousness, AKA the True Self << Which is what you actually are.

You are an formless, empty, infinite field of awareness which is omnipresent. Sounds kinda like God, huh? Well, that's exactly right. That's what you are. This experience scares the shit out the ego of course.

Yes it completely scares shit out of "me"!! Still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that the only thing real was this experience and not the other way around. 

[vitamin__vee]

1 hour ago, Sarah_Flagg said:

I will randomly feel like I am not human. It feels like I am scattered energy and I'm just observing.

Yes! I felt this just yesterday and only once more before then back in high school. As weird as it sounds, I feel completely normal: I feel happy, healthy, and everything in the world makes sense to me. 

I walked outside to my street and it was a bright, sunny day. I was standing underneath a shadow and I felt cool. I glanced at a tree and fell into this sort of hypnosis for about 30 seconds. Everything seemed to stop and just felt great!

I wish I could tell you exactly how to feel this all the time or what it comes from, but I'm on a search to find out why I feel those things too! In my opinion, it might have to do with having little to no stress in your day or from the types of activities you do in the day like yoga or working out. 

[Leo Gura]

13 minutes ago, Sarah_Flagg said:

Yes it completely scares shit out of "me"!! Still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that the only thing real was this experience and not the other way around. 

Sit down and ask yourself what is it that this fear is hiding?

You can intuit that it's hiding something important, right?

[Sarah Marie]

@Leo Gura

Right, I'm going to do this. Seriously, thank you so much. 

[abrakamowse]

I'm going crazy just reading this, Im always scared of going crazy.

 

What can I do @Leo Gura to overcome that?

[Aldo Marchand]

I believe is necessary to keep some balance between spiritual beliefs or activity 

and logical/scientific oriented life.

For me i think the intelectual capacity needs to be almost of the same level as our spiritual sensitivity.

Doing this way i get more consistency and less scareful experiencies that we sometimes are not ready to take.

That´s only my point of view.

45 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

Hehehe...

That's because YOU ARE NOT HUMAN!

That you are human is just a silly belief you've been told from birth. It has no basis in reality.

What you're experiencing is Spirit, AKA consciousness, AKA the True Self << Which is what you actually are.

You are a formless, empty, infinite field of awareness which is omnipresent. Sounds kinda like God, huh? Well, that's exactly right. That's what you are. This experience scares the shit out the ego of course.

I recommend you start doing self-inquiry, if you aren't already. It will gradually clarify these experiences for you. The problem right now is that you're having these experiences but your mind is unprepared to process them or recognize them for what they are.

Don't get lost in all that aura business. You need to sit down and deconstruct this illusory entity called "Sarah". Sarah is a lie. And she's starting to crumble. Don't bother trying to glue here back together. Help hasten the process instead.

@Nick @abrakamowse @Leo Gura @Mia @Sarah_Flagg @Ayla

 

1 hour ago, Sarah_Flagg said:

I am going to ask this question with the risk of sounding crazy, but if anyone can help explain this I'd be someone in here.

 

For a long time now I have these "episodes" or I call them "experiences" because they are so humbling and honestly put things into perspective for me. 

 

I am going to do my best to describe what happens. I will randomly feel like I am not human. It feels like I am scattered energy and I'm just observing. I have no feelings, like I can look down at my son and see him vibrating like little  atoms/energy making him up;I just recognize him as that, energy. It happens very quickly it feels like I am just "there". I don't choose when this happens and when I try to force it it doesn't work. It feels like I am dissociating (not consciously)  myself from my body, but I am still so aware. It almost feels like I am observing from an elevated level but I have no opinions.

 

It completely freaks me out when I "come back" because I don't mean to do it. 

 

I went and got a picture of my aura taken and the lady who did it said she must have snapped the picture wrong because she's never seen the perfect red orb around someone's head. We took it a second time and it was a perfect purple circle above my head. My entire family got theirs done and it looked rainbows around them. She told me that this means I am able to "leave" and visit "another realm". I don't know about that, I am a medium and I do help people connect but it's nothing crazy like that. It's just like a slideshow in my mind and that's how I connect two people on different realms. 

 

Can anyone help explain this? There are so many "out there" things that have happened in my life I feel like I'm open minded about anything, but this freaks me out because I feel like I'm crazy. 

 

 

 

 

 

[Ayla]

@abrakamowse , assuming there was a You to go crazy...what would be so bad about that? (might seem a joke, but think about it) 

[abrakamowse]

@Ayla  I have to sit and meditate more. Mr. Mind cannot understand yet Lol...

 

And I really feel everything you are saying is true, but is like... i can't find the way to cross "the Gateless Gate"

[abrakamowse]

1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

Hehehe...

That's because YOU ARE NOT HUMAN!

That you are human is just a silly belief you've been told from birth. It has no basis in reality.

 

Does that means that if we are fully enlightened we will see everything the same way @Sarah_Flagg explained here? I'm really confused Lol

[Ayla]

14 minutes ago, abrakamowse said:

I'm really confused

Just keep asking this: 

"WHO is feeling confused?"

"WHO is afraid of going crazy?" 

Just those two... all the external answers in the world won't be able to make you understand. This needs to be your own work. 

 

[abrakamowse]

@Ayla  

 

You are right... I will work on that. Thanks!

[Sarah Marie]

@abrakamowse Don't worry I'm sitting here asking myself questions too. LOL. 

[Ayla]

@Sarah_Flagg hahahahhahaa good  LOL 

[Sarah Marie]

THANK YOU! I am going to look into this.

[Walter B]

2 hours ago, Sarah_Flagg said:

First, thanks for not suggesting I need to go see my therapist like my family does, LOL. 

Second, thank you for your responses. I often feel like something is wrong with me because I look at my husband and those around me who seem to literally have nothing going on like this. Not even a little bit.

 

Yep. Some of my family did the same thing. Do the https://www.eclecticenergies.com/chakras/open.php to see if you gain a small "feeling" of control.

[Sarah Marie]

@Pyrrhocorax graculus Super interesting.

[Walter B]

2 hours ago, Sarah_Flagg said:

@abrakamowse I have not really actively "wanted" any of this really. I often times actually find myself wanting to be like my husband who is totally content working 9-5, watching TV, etc. Haha, it seems a lot easier. But it feels like its in my blood like I said, to question and figure out things. My brain often wants something scientific, so learning about most of this takes work for me. I feel like I am open to anything, but then I need to understand it. Which is the part that is looking like I need to just let it *be*.

 

Thanks again everyone.

The understanding is like a rope that pulls you when it's time. But pushing it just makes a mess. If you push it wrong you can end up with really bad "knots". Lol

[Walter B]

1 hour ago, Sarah_Flagg said:

Yes it completely scares shit out of "me"!! Still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that the only thing real was this experience and not the other way around. 

When I perceive fear I think about who I know that it may be coming from. ;

[abrakamowse]

I did the test too, very interesting. Thanks @Pyrrhocorax graculus for your comments.

[Leo Gura]

Charka Test Software??!

Lol...

You're guys are too much.

Cut that escapist shit and sit down and do the real work.