Lost Again...

[Lou7]

Recently I've been seriously taking the subject of self-actualization in my life (maybe not seriously but sincerely lol). I'm doing all the right things; excersising, meditation, eating healthy, reading and learning, working toward my goals/my life purpose. Even though it's all sounds fine and all and it's not that hard (either I'm beast at it or it's pretty easy), I've been recently feeling like there is no response. I know that it takes time and I have to be patient but it's like nobody cares about this stuff - being best that you can be and doing proper things. Sometimes when I go out with friends to socialize and take a little break I really feel like there is nothing to do in existence except this lonely work that isn't really exciting but somehow fulfilling and hollow at the same time (it will get more exciting in the future) (reminds me of Yoda's words: "Adventure. Excitement. A Jedi craves not these things."). I feel happy around people - even with a simple conversation, but at the same time being happy doesn't push me in the direction I really want to go.

I know what steps to take in the direction of my dream and I'm taking them, one day at the time, silently doing the work, learning necessary skills, building foundations to my vision and I really feel like that is the only road for me to go.

I don't even know what am I asking for in this post but well... nobody to talk to about this deep stuff, I just felt like writing it out somewhere.

[pluto]

There is no response, you have to be the response

Don't try too much or expect, just simply be and everything eventually falls in to place at the right time.

You just have to trust and surrender to life with open arms and find what makes you passionate and brings you the greatest joy and do that, nothing else really matters.

[jack k]

well looks like leo's new video is just right for you:) and me

[Shin]

Of course theres is no one to talk to about this stuff, there is perhaps 1 person in 10 000 that really do it properly.

Quick example, I never saw a single person walk in the forest near my city (in 2 years) except me.
Hell, even when I walk in the city, I rarely see a person walking alone, and when they do, they either look at their phone, listen to some music, do some solitary sport, or smoke and seems to wait for someone.

It is like no one accept to be alone, it isn't concevable, it is seen as madness.

So just get that straight in your mind, because even if you meet someone like that and befriend him, guess what, you'll still have to face all these things all by yourself anyway.

You're not even alone, it feels like it, but sooner or later you'll realize there is never a time where you've been alone,
It's all you,  I'm talking to myself here, you're talking to yourself, Leo is talking to himself in every video.

Even my dog licking his balls is us, fucking dog, I want to be able to do that too

 

 

Edited May 21, 2017 by Shin

[Lou7]

By the way, side question: what are some good ideas to get a steady income to support starting of my LP? It won't be a regular 9 to 5 and I'm still studying so opportunities are a bit scarce.

[abrakamowse]

On 5/21/2017 at 2:10 AM, Lou7 said:

Recently I've been seriously taking the subject of self-actualization in my life (maybe not seriously but sincerely lol). I'm doing all the right things; excersising, meditation, eating healthy, reading and learning, working toward my goals/my life purpose. Even though it's all sounds fine and all and it's not that hard (either I'm beast at it or it's pretty easy), I've been recently feeling like there is no response. I know that it takes time and I have to be patient but it's like nobody cares about this stuff - being best that you can be and doing proper things. Sometimes when I go out with friends to socialize and take a little break I really feel like there is nothing to do in existence except this lonely work that isn't really exciting but somehow fulfilling and hollow at the same time (it will get more exciting in the future) (reminds me of Yoda's words: "Adventure. Excitement. A Jedi craves not these things."). I feel happy around people - even with a simple conversation, but at the same time being happy doesn't push me in the direction I really want to go.

I know what steps to take in the direction of my dream and I'm taking them, one day at the time, silently doing the work, learning necessary skills, building foundations to my vision and I really feel like that is the only road for me to go.

I don't even know what am I asking for in this post but well... nobody to talk to about this deep stuff, I just felt like writing it out somewhere.

You have to drop everything. No desires at all, not even desire for enlightenment. The ego wants this and wants that... the ego wants "things" but who you really are doesn't need anything and it's not a thing. And it's already "whole". The desire of doing something is actually not letting you achieve whatever you want to achieve. You can't do nothing from the ego perspective, we are limited when we are identified with thoughts, emotions, body, objects... It's a paradox. You have to stop desiring to achieve what you really want.

Jesus said "For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it."

The life Jesus is talking is our life as a little self, our ego, desires, etc... if you lose that you will find your true self.