Duality is so obvious

[Sugarcoat]

Duality is so freaking obvious. My guess is that it can be equally as obvious as they say non duality is for those who have realized it. 
 

I feel like I exist every second of every day. It never leaves me. I never forget about myself. I never loose myself in something. I’m always here, watching from behind the eyes. I’m constantly here. It’s so obvious. I’m so freaking trapped in duality. Like I can’t get out of this duality dream or whatever it is. It’s like rock solid. More solid then the objects around me.

I think about these things all day long. But you know what I’ve noticed? No amount of contemplation makes any difference, no amount of listening to non duality talk does a difference. Because it’s all words. It doesn’t shake anything. It doesn’t shake this self structure that my piece of reality is seemingly dreaming up 24/7. It’s so rock solid no word breaks it apart. It’s like all the thinking I do is happening within the dual dream I’m trapped in. 
 

I think I need psychedelics. And hard ones at that. I think that’s my only chance of breaking this structure. I could do meditation and I did in the past. But I don’t have a strong enough desire for it so I don’t do it anymore to be honest. I could if I wanted but I don’t want to. I enjoy contemplation more but as I said it doesn’t make a difference. My guess is psychedelics are stronger anyways 

Edited Sunday at 08:17 PM by Sugarcoat

[Someone here]

If "solidity " is an evidence of unshakable realness..then does that mean a steel wall is more real than a rock ? And a Rock is more real than  water ? And water is more real than steam ?

It does seem like the world consists of separate physical solid objects .but go ahead and draw a line between two testicles. 

[Sugarcoat]

2 minutes ago, Someone here said:

If "solidity " is an evidence of unshakable realness..then does that mean a steel wall is more real than a rock ? And a Rock is more real than  water ? And water is more real than steam ?

It does seem like the world consists of separate physical solid objects .but go ahead and draw a line between two testicles. 

I don’t know if I’m gonna say the self feels solid, it just feels real. But I used to word rock solid as metaphor 

[Schizophonia]

21 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

 

I think I need psychedelics. 

Only 5 MeO DMT supposedly allows for a non-dual experience.
Other psychedelics increase the ego.

[Nemra]

23 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

My guess is psychedelics are stronger anyways 

You will be shocked at how much asleep you have been.

[Sugarcoat]

4 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Only 5 MeO DMT supposedly allows for a non-dual experience.
Other psychedelics increase the ego.

When I tried a small dose it was like I melted into the wall lol. I wanna try again !! Need to find a way

[Sugarcoat]

1 minute ago, Nemra said:

You will be shocked at how much asleep you have been.

I need that shock!

[Someone here]

19 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

I don’t know if I’m gonna say the self feels solid, it just feels real. But I used to word rock solid as metaphor 

The self feesl real ? Lol .Take out your finger and point to The ego self.  Otherwise known as the "devil " in this community. 

You should get rid of your ego sense . .completely destroy it . Careful if you are a male though because your ego is localised in you know what . Since you are a woman then it's fine .

[Sugarcoat]

1 minute ago, Someone here said:

The self feesl real ? Lol .Take out your finger and point to The ego self.  Otherwise known as the "devil " in this community. 

You should get rid of your ego sense . .completely destroy it . Careful if you are a male though because your ego is localised in you know what . Since you are a woman then it's fine .

I’m pointing to my head

Theres no should. I actually like having a self. I just don’t like suffering, so I thought if I get rid of self I get rid of suffering (tadaaa!!). That’s why I said I need psychedelics . But I live with my parents so it’s risky to take it. Omg I hope they never find my account .  I should change my profile pic and info to be safe honestly 

[Schizophonia]

9 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

When I tried a small dose it was like I melted into the wall lol. I wanna try again !! Need to find a way

I want to try again a little too, I have some left.

10 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

I need that shock!

5 MeO MIPT is the long-acting psychedelic that has given me the closest experience to ego dissolution, and is easily found online.

[Schizophonia]

3 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

I’m pointing to my head

Theres no should. I actually like having a self. I just don’t like suffering, so I thought if I get rid of self I get rid of suffering (tadaaa!!). 

But also enjoyment ?

[Sugarcoat]

3 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

I want to try again a little too, I have some left.

5 MeO MIPT is the long-acting psychedelic that has given me the closest experience to ego dissolution, and is easily found online.

How is that different from 5 Meo?

Dear god I hope my parents never find my account I’ll get kicked out

[Sugarcoat]

2 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

But also enjoyment ?

That’s what I wonder

[Nemra]

5 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Dear god I hope my parents never find my account I’ll get kicked out

Don't rush too much and be more strategic.

[Schizophonia]

2 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

How is that different from 5 Meo?

It's somewhere between a classic psychedelic and 5 MeO DMT, I'd say.
During the come up of my big trip, I felt like I was melting into a divine imagination, and it was the strangest feeling I've ever experienced in my life.

2 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Dear god I hope my parents never find my account I’ll get kicked out

Lol.

Me too.

5 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

That’s what I wonder

No duality, no love or experience in general.

[Sugarcoat]

Just now, Nemra said:

Don't rush too much and be more strategic.

Hahaha they don’t look at this forum . But they could if they wanted . I should change my profile 

[Schizophonia]

1 minute ago, Nemra said:

Don't rush too much and be more strategic.

Don't buy 5 MeO DMT for 2000 euros from a crook hippie 😅

[Sugarcoat]

Just now, Schizophonia said:

It's somewhere between a classic psychedelic and 5 MeO DMT, I'd say.
During the come up of my big trip, I felt like I was melting into a divine imagination, and it was the strangest feeling I've ever experienced in my life.

Lol.

Me too.

 

That’s so cool

Haha then we are on same page

1 minute ago, Schizophonia said:

 

No duality, no love or experience in general.

Some say it’s the same … so you can still feel it all

[Nemra]

9 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Hahaha they don’t look at this forum. But they could if they wanted. I should change my profile 

Your profile picture is less worrisome than your personal data on this forum.

However, paranoia will also be problematic.

Edited Sunday at 09:19 PM by Nemra

[Nemra]

9 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Don't buy 5 MeO DMT for 2000 euros from a crook hippie 😅

Who does that? 🙃