Post mushroom depression

[Xam]

Thanks a lot for your insights

 

On 22.04.2025 at 11:59 AM, Leo Gura said:

You don't need to attach some profound significance to a bad trip. A bad trip can happen for no good reason and there's no need to rack your mind over why. Let it go and move on.

I tried to let it go using some sedona style method and just sitting with it. But it did not feel right.

 

20 hours ago, Osaid said:

 Don't get caught up in "that". Reality could not know any such thing, as it would be other than it.

Thanks for your words Osaid. I am not sure if I am at a stage where I fully comprehend your message. What do you mean by "that"?

What is helping currently is the act of figuring out how to integrate the experience and talking to good friends.

I am at a point now where it feels like this feeling was already always there, but it was covered up. Like a cave entrance in a jungle hidden by bushes, the experience burned down the shrubbery and laid bare the entry to a gaping hole in my life. I feel the need to make sense out of it, I feel like if I let it become overgrown again, that I will be at square one again if the bushes are burning again. Does this make any sense? I don't know.

[Leo Gura]

27 minutes ago, Xam said:

I tried to let it go using some sedona style method and just sitting with it. But it did not feel right.

You don't necessarily need to let it go actively like that. Just carry on with normal life. Distract yourself a bit with something fun.

[Osaid]

3 hours ago, Xam said:

I am at a point now where it feels like this feeling was already always there, but it was covered up.

Yes, totally. The psychedelics "bring to light" all the different beliefs and ideas you pushed away in the sober state. In the same way how when someone gets physically ill, it "makes space" for beliefs about illness and death to be questioned. The psychedelic has brought up beliefs about yourself and your life to the forefront, and those are being felt.

3 hours ago, Xam said:

I feel the need to make sense out of it, I feel like if I let it become overgrown again, that I will be at square one again if the bushes are burning again.

What I'm suggesting is that you don't actually have to do anything. All the resistance, and all of what is felt, is actually all the doing. "I have to do this, I have to do that" feels like misery. There is no difference between the idea and the emotion.

In meditation, if you sit still for a while, such thoughts and feelings will literally just vanish without you having to do anything, because they are actually temporal (time-based) beliefs which aren't actually in perception. They are self-referential thoughts. Meditation allows them to "fizzle out".

A fear of "things happening again" is cyclical, which indicates time or some sort of logic or belief which is "looping" as a thought-loop. It's essentially a fear of the past or future, which would be overlooking that you have never actually experienced any past or future and that you are only present. 
 

Edited Wednesday at 09:26 PM by Osaid