How to detach from outcome?

[Elton]

I am a team lead for service in my company leading a team of 5 and I have a manager over me.

There are 2 sales guys for my particular product and 2 co ordinators.

Today was the AGM of our company.

All my colleagues except me got various awards.

I feel terrible for being the only one on not getting any award. I feel worthless.

I had put in effort and emotional labour throughout the year.

I don't understand why I was treated so unfairly.. 

I asked my manger upfront if I didn't put in any efforts, and told him I will take off the next whole week. 

He was like I will speak to the higher management but I know he was the one who didn't nominate me in the first place... I didn't wait for dinner and left even when he tried to stop me..

Did I act childish? 

I don't know but I'm in serious worry and unhappy about the situation.

Should I practice detachment from outcome or go to my management with data about my work last year? Anyways it won't matter now as the public distribution of awards is over.. Or just focus on doing well next year ? 

Was I a victim of office politics? 

How to keep my self esteem high in this situation? Will my team respect me ?

Edited Friday at 09:13 PM by Elton

[LastThursday]

@Elton it's clearly important to you from what you write. Some recognition can go a long way to feeling accepted and part of things. Maybe you want status and prestige.

From my own experience I have been looked over for recognition a number of times in different jobs, despite working hard and consistently, sometimes when I demonstrably did better work than others. I remember being effectively fired from a job when they were slimming down their workforce, even though I got the highest score in their supposedly "fair" assessment tests.

I don't want to be too negative, as I don't know the specifics of your situation. Most of it yes, does come down to office politics, and who likes whom the most - that's it. Often it'll completely fly under the radar and you won't even be aware of it - until you don't get that award.

If your job is important to you, then don't worry about awards, the rewards of the work itself and that at least one other person respects your skill and judgement should be enough. If it's not so important, then change jobs, it can be a breath of fresh air.

Edited Friday at 10:56 PM by LastThursday

[Elton]

Will I ever be able to break free from this shitty wage slavery.

How did this fucking job and company made me feel so fucking small and pathetic.

8 years ago I was all pumped up about creating my own business by finding my life purpose but now the dependence on wages has made me feel trapped... 

I want to break free ....

 

I found my purpose years ago but couldn't act on it I wanted to be the top 5 percent who would Ace the course but now I don't think I can be a life coach in india.. that was what I had found out years ago... But what to do now ... 

I feel so bad so bad @Leo Gura please give me some advice I don't know what to do now.. I really want to know about your subconscious course Leo..

Please help 😭.. I'm not that advanced in spirituality and the content that you teach now I need basic advise Leo..

There is only you who I can turn to in such a situation, my parents are telling me to work harder and live up to the expectations of my bosses.. but I need to break free I don't know what to do.. do you recommend doing the life purpose course again ?? 

[Elton]

Please any counsellors out here who would like to help me ? 

[Elliott]

You're not your job. The meaningful fruits of your labor are dependent on the competency of the people above you. Awards are just manipulation, of everyone there.

Edited Saturday at 03:50 PM by Elliott

[Elton]

@Elliott they purposely want to make me feel pathetic and small so that I can willingly give up my liberty? 

[Elliott]

43 minutes ago, Elton said:

@Elliott they purposely want to make me feel pathetic and small so that I can willingly give up my liberty? 

Not likely. It may have just been trying to show appreciation to the departments that they really need to produce right now.

[Elliott]

Have they told you you suck? I know Indian culture is different than mine, but do they not tell you when you suck?

[Elton]

@Elliott no man infact when everyone was clicking photos the fucking manager came by to congratulate everyone.. I asked him why was only I left out ? He started acting I'll speak to the higer management and all, but infact he was the one who did not recommend me !! Then he was like don't feel down there is always a next time and all that shit ! I told him that I don't want anything next time and left from the event ! 

[Yimpa]

@Elton What a jerk. Don’t let those type of people walk all over you. I don’t care if he is your boss, he is a baby.

[Elton]

@Yimpa why am I not able to get over it ? I have spent over 8 years in this company now is that the reason it is affecting me ?? I feel like shit .. 

Ill try shamanic breathing techniques today to try to deal with this.. 

I feel really bad that I am sensitive to this office shit I wish I could just leave this behind the office doors 

[Elton]

I'm going to seriously try psycho cybernetics this year i will only focus on training my subconscious mind.

I'll redo the life purpose course again..

[Yimpa]

@Elton Good job! *pats you on the back*

[Elton]

@Yimpa and I'm not going to visualise performing well in my job but instead living my life purpose, creating a business and making billions of rupees. Living and extraordinary life.

Self esteem 

Confidence 

Overcoming fear of failure 

Fear of success 

Abundance

I'm going to be focusing on meditation techniques and yoga techniques, visualization and affirmations rather then just going through the motions I'm going to be mindful in all aspects of life. Meditation practices will extend in my daily life rather than just practicing I'm Going to learn dealing with people, learn all the relevant books from leos booklist.

Who's going to stop me ?! 

No one ! 

No one can fucking stop me.

I'm a fucking missile

No one can come in my way ! 

No body 

Not even fucking ME !!!!!

 

[Aquarius]

Maybe you dont need to detach. Maybe you need to care more. Trust your instinct!

[Elton]

@Aquarius oh yes !!!! Maybe I was detached all year round and it was sensed !! Makes sense ...