What does brother have against me?

[Santiago Ram]

This journal is a daily reflection upon the following question:

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What does my neighbor have against me?

I believe answering this question solves resentment, neurosis and folly. It removes Samskaras. And excessive thinking.

This journal will contain names, issues and solutions. It is a daily journal.

Edited April 6 by Santiago Ram

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I've found this journal to be far too difficult, not because of laziness, but because of the emotional work of confessing my faults in public.

However, I will start off with this question:

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Who was the last person to hurt me?

Then I will answer what he or she has against me...

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Last person: my coach Kat

Against me: not work consistently, not finish the project on time

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Last person: Jose Luis

Against me: my room is a f**cking mess

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Last person: Jose Luis

Against me: not listen and ask him questions, talk too much

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Last person: this guy on Tinder

Against me: talk about Spirituality and Solipsism

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Last person: this atheist guy from my house

Against me: showed him a Leo's vid on Why God cannot be Proven and he got upset

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Last person: this atheist guy from my house

Against me: I keep talking spirituality

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I figure I should just ignore this guy

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Last person: this guy from X

Against me: he just wants sex, I talk too much

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Last person: Allen

Against me: I ask him for his Coca Colas

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Last person: Charlie

Against me: room is a mess, talking with authority

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Last person: mother

Against me: not go to gym

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Last person: Allen

Against me: not hang out with him

Give him: quality time

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Last person: Manuel

Against me: not apologizing for speaking about spirituality

Give him: space

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I will now follow this format:

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1. Who was the last person to hurt me?

2. What does he or she have against me?

3. What can I give him or her?

Example

Last person: Charlie

Against me: I woke up late

Give him: 21 days waking up early and talking to him about it

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Last person: Manuel

Against me: attack his atheism

Give him: SILENCE

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Last person: Instagram followers

Against me: they don't like me preaching

Give them: not entering Instagram or social media

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These atheists piss me off

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Last person to hurt me: Areli

Against me: didn't want to hear about the Gospels

Give her: space