LP advice needed

[OMG]

Had a stable career in IT that paid figures that would’ve allowed me to live comfortably. After watching Leos videos and getting on the personal development journey, reading tons of books, watching videos, I started doubting my career as not being authentic after watching life purpose video, I purchased the course and completed all the exercises and got a sense that my LP was to do coaching as it was becoming a buzz word on social media. I enrolled into a coaching school and after a while, it felt like they were marketing grifters and after reviewing some student feedback on the internet how they were scammed, touting toxic positivity mindset and it turned me off from the pursuit all together as I cannot stand these grifter types after growth in consciousness. After a while I got another job like my old job and a year into it, and I quit that job to backpack and traveled around Asia for a couple of months after being dissatisfied. I gained lots of valuable social experiences, met lots of people and after a while the novelty wore off and I was tired of being constantly on the move and wanted a routine and possibly work on something I am passionate about. 

After coming back I stayed with my parents to save on rents until I found job, after months of trying aggressively, my job search did not bear any fruit, and I took a break to revisit the LP and do some psychedelics. I did a couple of mild trips on mushrooms/lsd and had nice experiences and once I did medium dose and had God-Realization for which I have written a long trip report. I wanted more independence and to move out of my conservative parents house but after working with a coach on trying to figure on LP further, he advised that its best to go back to my old job to be more practical and it could take me 4-5 years to actualize my LP and I couldn’t be unemployed without a pay check in the meantime if I wanted to move out. Post that conversation, I dropped focus on LP due to impracticality and focused more on my job search. After being unemployed for so long, having failed at figuring out my LP, I became extremely depressed and started smoking cannabis chronically to numb my emotions which worsened my mental health condition and made me extremely lazy to do anything and I realized if I continued this would ruin my life, so I quit cannabis. 

Post that I have been reluctantly trying to apply for job, while procrastinating after months to land something and my parents got really annoyed and asked me to leave their house. The gains in personal development and spirituality have led me to being more content with less materially but I still suffer emotionally quite a lot and often contemplate if this was worth it at all since it has costed me well over $200k of potential earning if I had been employed had I just stayed in my current job and saved my money which would've at least sorted out my survival situation to some degree. There is massive resistance and procrastination when it comes to applying for jobs and I am not sure why? Could be my lack of discipline of not wanting to do the grunt work. Honestly over the years I realized certain endeavors are just impractical and may not pay your bills if your survival situation is not sorted out like in my case. I was to some extent influenced by spiritual teachers including Leo and might've misapplied some teaching in neglecting the low levels of maslow's hierarchy of needs that has backfired for me now. I was thinking to grind it out and get back to my old job since it’s the best practical option that would pay me well to sort out my survival situation and perhaps, I could pursue other endeavors on the side. I’d love to hear some advice and opinions.

[Elliott]

Work a job for money, not satisfaction. Not that you should settle for a job that ruins your life, a job should be a net positive to your life; Salary - Drawbacks = Net positive.

Maslows hierarchy first.

Edited April 4 by Elliott

[The Renaissance Man]

@OMG Brother! Thanks for sharing. I read through all your story, it seems your LP is still to do coaching, right?

You enrolled in a coaching school, so you should kind of know how the daily life at work of a life coach is. Is that the life you want? Is that your LP? I don't want you to fall in love with the idea of coaching, and then hate the actuality of it.

Regardless, you learned that there's no way around money. You need money to survive. You need to take care of that. There are two ways:

1. First option: You go and look for a job right now, that gives you financial stability (you can look for jobs that are easier to find, but use a PC, so you may be able to do some studying or work for your LP as you're there). And after you find the job, you can look for a better one, so you job-hop into better and better positions, maybe a nice part-time job, maybe one where you work from home, etc. This is better than trying to find a good job from scratch and risking being unemployed for months and months, if you really need money, you can't afford that. Yes, it's tedious. Make a plan and STICK TO IT. Make a plan, you can't rely on how you feel each day, as you've already learned.
2. Second option: if you think there's a chance you can make money with your LP soon, you could consider going all in on that, and let that take your entire day, instead of a job. BUT write down a number clearly: the amount of money below which you'll go and find a job, no matter what happens. I don't know your financial situation, so you may already be below that number.

So, you either work a job and make slower progress in your LP in the remaining time, or you try to make it work before you go into the red financial zone.

I have an opinion about Leo's course, and concept of life purpose. I understand the course is from 8 years ago or so, and that while still incredibly valuable, Leo's best work came well after that phase. The main problem I see is that it only gives you half the picture. The half-picture about passion, mastery, inspiration. The other half is marketing. You need to be as much of a marketing master as you are at your actual job if you want to make a living out of your life purpose. This isn't said enough times. Doesn't mean grifting people. But it means you need reliable ways to:

1. Get the attention of potential clients reliably and consistently (social media content, direct messaging people on their profiles, paid advertisement are the big 3)
2. Learn to communicate the value you're actually offering. This is called being persuasive, or "sales". If you get attention, but you're the only one knowing how great your coaching is... no-one's going to buy. And if you get no attention, well...

In conclusion

Money needs to be taken care of in one of the two ways I explained. In the meantime you've got to become good at business! First, do you have the skill to provide value? Are you able to provide coaching results? Second, are you able to find the people to which you can even make an offer to help and give that value?

PS - If you've never worked with a client, start working for free. Extend the time horizon for wealth. You'll probably suck initially. And working for free, and then charging little, makes it easy to find clients, get testimonials, and most importantly experience.

It's doable, I'm telling you! Don't underestimate the wisdom you have accumulated since leaving your job. Most coaches don't have Leo's teachings behind them, you have a major advantage!