Misato Katsuragi

I have developed DPDR from contemplation

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@Staples yeah I think honestly like im just gonna try to forget about this shit honestly for a while, the more I dive deep into existential questions and realizations the more I tend to spiral. so im just gonna take it a few steps back it wasnt my intention to get here but I just kinda burst my bubble of what normal reality is unexpectedly from contemplating epistemology and studying how we know anything, ultimately to realize that all my beliefs were just assumptions and I didn't actually know what anything was at the deepest level

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@Starlight321 they call dpdr enlightenments evil twin, and dont worry ill do whatever I can to stay grounded so im going to try to keep myself distracted for a little bit while I truly sort things. But yeah imo DPDR is just enlightenment but you dont fully let go and let anxiety take over you. if you approach it with holy shit reality is beautiful then its enlightenment, but if you treat it with fear then you get what happened to me.

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21 hours ago, Misato Katsuragi said:

the more I dive deep into existential questions and realizations the more I tend to spiral

That happened to me in the beginning also. I went straight for the big insights.

Leo offered some solid advice.

If I could go back I'd have started out by doing a lot of calming style meditation practices, exercise, and chilling with good friends;

Existential contemplation without a calm mind can be incredibly destabilizing. There's a reason the Buddhists put so much emphasis on Samatha meditation.

Reading a lot of books and consuming a lot of video content can also be destabilizing.

Eventually you learn to slow down because the suffering becomes too great.

Make sure to get help from a teacher that you trust if things get too bad.

Meaninglessness can really fuck up your life.

Edited by Breathe

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Try yoga, pilates, or weight lifting

contact cheetah house or Michael Taft

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On 3/27/2025 at 0:06 AM, Misato Katsuragi said:

@VeganAwake yeah I realize that like the you character was just something I made up so I could navigate life better but in reality I have no idea what I am really at the most fundamental level. sadly I didn't get to experience god, I just became literally nothing.

Yup, sometimes its recognized that the seeker isn't a real entity.....which can drastically change the body's day to day schedule......sometimes nothing really changes.....there's no right or wrong path regardless.

Often times things just start becoming obvious!

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“Everything is honoured, but nothing matters.” — Eckhart Tolle.

"I have lived on the lip of insanity, wanting to know reasons, knocking on a door. It opens. I've been knocking from the inside." -- Rumi

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@Misato Katsuragi can you tell. How you do it to deconstruct your beliefs? You sit down, ask questions like who am I, what is this what is that for some minutes? 

I can't imagine what is needed to deconstruct your core beliefs.

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@OBEler you just need to have crazy open mindedness l that you don't truly know anything, like I was at point where technically I wasn't sure if gravity existed, like that didnt mean I wasn't stupid and like tried flying but the whole concept of gravity I was open minded that it's possible it may not be true despite me seeing it work literally right in front of me. As I deconstructed what knowing anything truly meant to me, and thus everything became the void and all I was left was with IDK for everything around me, and I embodied that realization and got dpdr.

 

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@Misato Katsuragi Wow, I think a perfect book for you would be then the book of not knowing from Peter Ralston. You already did what he tries to tell the reader but maybe there are some missing pieces in his book which help you.  It's an incredible good book.

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