Yesterday, I had my deepest trip report yet.

I took 1.2g of some seriously strong PE mushrooms (with 2 friends) and made the realization that "my" consciousness as a whole is God. That is all that exists. God is having this human experience to explore what he can create with his infinite creativity and power.  
It's always been there but we take our experience for granted. The experience felt solipsistic in nature.  It was such a strong trip and I wanted it to be over at the time. Now that I have come to this profound realization, I can't help but miss the profundity of the experience. So profound, yet challenging due to the sheer intensity of the experience. I'm dumbfounded about how to integrate this powerful experience. Any help is appreciated. Summary: Well, today I realized I'm God. I'm all that exists. There is only me. No one else. God is love. God is creation itself. Respect God. The most intense experience of my life. Funny enough, I was expecting it to be a light and enjoyable trip - seriously undermining the dosage. I have done 2.75g of some other strain in the past and it was chaotic. Yet, I was able to walk around and talk to myself. This one, however, felt like 3.5g-4g. I was in no condition to walk. Only able to lay down and see what it has to show me - whether I liked it or not.  Right after consuming, after 20 minutes the visuals were coming intensely. I was sitting on a bench in a nearby park and saw the ground eating itself. I was surprised to know that 1.2g of PE could be this damn intense. I laid down on the grass with my friends - still not realizing what the fuck I was in for. At one point, I felt that mushrooms wanted me to go deep this time - but I thought to myself, "Please, not this time. I'm with my friends here. I don't want to lose my shit with them". It made me feel slightly uncomfortable but it went away - for a bit. It got cold so we came back home. The whole walk felt uncomfortable. I was in no shape to walk. All I wanted to do was lay down. I lay on my bed with my friends. After some time, the shrooms made me move my hands and the tracers were out of this world. The afterimage was so mesmerizing. It felt holy. My hands were moving themselves in a very majestic Way.  Then I was brought back again to the plan of mushrooms showing me something deep. This time, I had no choice. Either I could ignore and fight the experience and feel very uncomfortable (to the point I have a panic attack) OR I could just accept my fate and see what it has to show me. It was gentle with me. It was slowly nudging me in its direction - telling me to see and just hang on to my dear life. This experience shed light on the importance of surrendering. It is going to show you what it wants to show you whether you like it or not. You are at its mercy. At certain points, the experience got very intense, and as I was lying down with my eyes closed, my left hand was comforting me by caressing my face and my torso. As I was lying down on my bed, it suddenly hit me. My experience was fully encompassing. Complete oneness. This experience is all that exists and that precisely is God. You are God living this experience. And your consciousness is IT. It has been right under your nose all this time. But been too busy to see it. Your experience is divine.  This knowledge wasn't free. I was shown the sheer intensity of the experience. Felt like I was almost an inch away from losing my sanity. There were moments in which I felt as if I would get trapped in this mental head space forever. Or reality could be broken in any second. But I was being guided to not dwell on those thoughts and just hang tight.  Challenging moments made me want to change the experience, but I kept being brought back gently. Surrendering is important. You will be shown whether you like it or not.  We questioned what is love. And got the answer that love is creation itself. Love = God = Creation. Why? Because there's so much creativity to be manifested. There's so much potential. Infinite potential. (As I have come out of the trip, I realize that I don't have a deep understanding of why I wrote this.) It was a very bonding experience with my friends Mr. A and Ms. S. We hugged each other at the end for enduring this thunderstorm of an experience. Mr. A had an ego-death experience - he forgot who he was and was getting paranoid and confused about why he was there. Luckily, I was able to handle that situation.  Ms. S saw a white light during her closed-eye visuals. She knew if she walked over to that white light, there would be peace and something profound to be found there. But to reach that door, she would have to walk a lot and experience negative things that would come during the walk to the light. So she decided not to pursue it. And her experience wasn't as profound. After 6 hours, I was pretty much back to monkey mind, but with a very profound realization. 
Thank you for reading.  Any tips on integrating this experience are welcome.