Seriously doubt friends is a necessity for happiness

[Peo]

After years of socializing and making a bunch of friends, I don't feel like it really made me any happier in life.

I have about 10 friends today, 6 close ones. I think the problem is me though, not the quality of friends. My new friends are really good people, but it always feels like a burden to hang out with them. I have over the years realized that I am much more introverted than I thought. I always assumed if I practiced my social skills I would enjoy being social and become more extroverted, but I still hate talking to people. I have no interest in actually having friends, but society and my family pushed me to go out and be more social. 

Now I am still glad I socialized since I have gained a lot of confidence, self-esteem and the ability of "not giving a shit what other people think of me". My work paid off in the end.

Sometimes I wish I had 0 friends so I can be left alone. I know it is rather ridiculous of me to complain of having friends, when there are people out there who have no friends. I guess I take it a bit for granted these days. I don’t want to just cut all my friends off since I feel like I would be a complete asshole for doing it. 

Currently I am putting effort into doing pick-up, talking to girls and trying to get dates. The social skills I gained over the years helps in that regard. I only do it for the sex and to master my seduction skills.  

 

So in conclusion I don't feel like human connection is really a necessity for happiness.

 

What do you guys think? Am I crazy?

[Leo Gura]

Not crazy, just a matter of lifestyle.

Some people like a carrot stuck in their ass and some don't.

The key is to get very clear about which type you are.

Also, remember, life is long and you will go through phases. Social phases, secluded phases.

Edited 11 hours ago by Leo Gura

[Terell Kirby]

1 hour ago, Peo said:

What do you guys think? Am I crazy?

Doesn't matter what we think.

But I do sense some hesitancy and confusion in your words. Maybe its not that you hate talking to people- but more or less trying to find the meaning in communication itself.

You are always in relation and communion with God-be it with or without interactions with humans. As consciousness grows, things are seen differently-engaging with humans is a tricky and complex proposition.

There's a lot of human shit to get lost in, but also much to learn from .. especially about one's own psyche.

Edited 10 hours ago by Terell Kirby

[RawJudah]

We only need a few friends. It’s really important to set boundaries though, because if you don’t know how or when to say no - people can just walk all over you. Friends that can understand that are the best friends ever. 
And being available all the time is not good. You definitely need parts of your day on your own to gather your thoughts. 

[meta_male]

7 hours ago, Peo said:

Sometimes I wish I had 0 friends so I can be left alone.

Why couldn't you be left alone if there's friends in the picture?