Leo please, Im scared

[ExploringReality]

That's what happened to me!!! It was an awakening of absolute solipsism. I realized the Self is all there is. I've been dreaming it all right here, right now. Everyone around me is invested in the dream and I need to continue swimming in survival but I realize there is only me dreaming forever. It's hard to stomach this because my ego feels alone and scared. I want to believe others are real apart from me again. I want to cry.

[Santiago Ram]

Me too. It is scary. At the begining, but I later had  more solipsistic awakenings and it became cooler as I saw more aspects of the Dream: Sovereignty, Freedom. Intelligence, Design. Love.

Edited Wednesday at 03:25 AM by Santiago Ram

[Santiago Ram]

How did you acheive it?

[Santiago Ram]

You can DM me, although Im just a dream character of yours.

[Santiago Ram]

@ExploringRealityCry, but if you had a permanent awakening, know it will get better and that you are very fortunate. Otherwise, know that this will pass and others will seem real to you in a moment. Either way you win.

Edited Wednesday at 03:42 AM by Santiago Ram

[Leo Gura]

@ExploringReality Focus on appreciating the beauty that the world is an illusion.

What can be better than that?

You just need to drop the silly human framing of needing the world to be mind-independent. Humans have poisoned your mind with bad ideas and desires.

Love illusoriness. Love consciousness. Love yourself.

This is not a matter of stomaching something bad. This is about loving consciousness.

Edited Wednesday at 04:13 AM by Leo Gura

[ExploringReality]

@Leo Gura

Its awesome and terrifying. It's jolting Leo. To realize that I've been it all along feels like a dead man Awakening in a grave. It's like spoiling the movie that I believe is real. I watched my dad growing up watching all the classic movies, so sucked in that I would watch my Dad looking at the movie and be more interested in watching him instead of the movie. It is beautiful Leo it really is. This consciousness is so fucking gargantuas. How can I forget this and pretend to not see this? Or how can I integrate and synthesize this?

Edited Wednesday at 04:32 AM by ExploringReality

[Leo Gura]

12 minutes ago, ExploringReality said:

How can I forget this and pretend to not see this? Or how can I integrate and synthesize this?

Focus on the beauty of Consciousness. That is all. Don't get lost in human noise.

[ExploringReality]

@Leo Gura

Thank you. Consciousness is beautiful. There is nothing I need from anyone or anything because all is impermanence, consciousness exploring itself. Yes I will continue to play my game and be compassionate towards the suffering of the dream. To be in the world but not of it. It is bitter sweet and will learn to enjoy it. That all is a construct and I am God. Why would I consciously choose to live in a nightmare? I will choose to enjoy this construction. I went to Disneyland and the whole time I enjoyed it all while knowing it's all chimp shit and designed to suck you right in this. I notice this and it pulls me out of a good time a little. 

Edited Wednesday at 05:01 AM by ExploringReality

[Santiago Ram]

@ExploringReality That is amazing. Can you tell us how it happened? Was it sporadic? What happened that led to your awakening?

[Santiago Ram]

@ExploringRealityIf you had a permanent solipsistic awakening, that is something I have been desperately searching for.

Can you tell us a bit more on how you achieved it?

 

[Santiago Ram]

@Leo Gura@ExploringReality How do I realize Solipsism Permanently?

[ExploringReality]

@Santiago Ram @Leo Gura

 

Go straight for Truth. Whatever it is. Do you really want to know and understand reality? That has been my key. It's facing Truth is what is the challenge 

Edited Wednesday at 05:10 AM by ExploringReality

[Santiago Ram]

@ExploringRealityThank you Did you do a meditation? Guided or watch one of Leo's videos?

[Santiago Ram]

Or just contemplate What is Truth?

[Hojo]

@Santiago Ram Maybe to feel the darkness behind you like its a static void of nothing. Then bring it forward into reality and say I am in a first person simulation, the void is the player.

Edited Wednesday at 05:26 AM by Hojo

[Santiago Ram]

@Hojo Thanks

[Santiago Ram]

28 minutes ago, ExploringReality said:

@Santiago Ram @Leo Gura

 

Go straight for Truth. Whatever it is. Do you really want to know and understand reality? That has been my key. It's facing Truth is what is the challenge 

@ExploringRealityThank you, I just did a few minutes of contemplation on What Truth Is and I get a bit of it. I realize I've been in so much Therapy that these BS have just made noise in my mind. 

Contemplate what is True?

Thank you  

 

Edited Wednesday at 05:38 AM by Santiago Ram

[Atb210201]

5 hours ago, ExploringReality said:

That's what happened to me!!! It was an awakening of absolute solipsism. I realized the Self is all there is. I've been dreaming it all right here, right now. Everyone around me is invested in the dream and I need to continue swimming in survival but I realize there is only me dreaming forever. It's hard to stomach this because my ego feels alone and scared. I want to believe others are real apart from me again. I want to cry.

You are not alone.

You are connected to everyone.

Change your perspective.

[AION]

Don't kid yourself. You haven't woken up to solipsism. True awakening to solipsism means that there is no other so there is no room to feel lonely.