Goal tracking

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I have no routines that are enjoyable to me and that would allow me to "grow" in my unique ways, I believe I need to fix this first. Otherwise I just tend to end up doing bullshit, like playing that one silly game. Or scrolling Youtube shorts. And I know both of these things are silly - and I always feel bad aftertaste in my mind after indulging in these kinds of activities - and yet I keep doing them. It is hard for me to weed out these childish tendencies. And yet I want to do that. This shall be my first goal - to replace these childish tendencies with healthier habits

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I'm in a fairly shitty situation regarding my job prospects right now.

The job market situation is going to get pretty shitty in general. Needless to say, I've got a lot of financial cushions to protect me, but I still need to get some income. I've got approximately a few months — until the end of September — before the money in my current bank account runs out. That's because my expenses are absolutely minimal, but I still have some necessary monthly payments to make. However, my parents' income is high enough to cover even those expenses pretty easily. It would just be awkward for me to let them pay for my stuff again — kind of embarrassing.

I've also got an additional €3,500 saved up, and I keep sending money there, but that's not to be touched before retirement — it's my retirement fund.

I could rent out the apartment, but I'd rather not, as I want to live there eventually and use it for my own purposes. It would feel desperate if I had to do that. But, it's an option.

A certain audacious plan came to mind — a very daring and complex one — but still, it might be worth a try.

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Jamaican people are such beggars LMAO literaly

It's like it's their culture LOL now I understand that incessant materialism and misandry

Like goddamn I'm so glad I live in Europe. Gotta honour this fact a lot more in my day to day life for real

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Fuck everyone. You're all bellow me

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Imagine writing paragraphs upon paragraphs of text, thinking someone is giving even a iota of a shit about you to read it after you, gotta be narcisism at it's peak. This shit blows my fucking mind

Anyway, job search continues

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Have to turn my attention into building my job skills and just working out.

I see no other purpose in my life

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Purpose over pleasure. Action over passivity

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Gotta get some momentum going

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I feel like a madman sometimes. I cannot make sense of this world. In fact, never really could make sense of it

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I shouldn't even be here. I should just be clear on what I want, going after it and getting it. Like all the other normal people around me. I'm the only one who's abnormal and weird

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I'm too much of a manchild generally, to achieve goals of a too serious, too mature nature is what I'm realizing. But I honestly like it. As long as I can take care of myself (which I can) and I'm not a burden on others (which I'm not) then everything's golden

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Theres some crazy MFs on this forum fr fr, Im outta this bitch fr fr ngl on my momma

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Bro Im the janitor/security of this fuckin place I swear the God LMAO always making the trash take itself out. Incredible

But whatever. If they won't accept me on this current position then they are beyond retarded. And they should go fuck themselves. Like. That role fits me perfectly. Of course it's still a big possibility cause ppl are retarded. I'll go for whatever if that happens, would not care anymore.

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Alright, seems like I don't have to worry about this anymore. Just going to wait a little while before "celebrating", since it is not yet trully cemented agreement, but a verbal one nontheless, should be enough. This is the kind of joy that would surely seem of little importance to many people, but is a big deal for me since it lifted big boulder off of my shoulders, now I got some space to breathe and manouver and prepare for the future better

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I need to drastically increase my job competence, that much is clear, both actual and perceived one. Just not sure which avenue to go towards anymore, but I feel like it's gotta be something both technical and manual. I feel like that way I'll have the most well paid options + not being replaceable by A.I. Plus not enough of this social media ass, braindead ass generation will want to do it or be able to do it, they're all about that software but no hardware knowledge, so there's always going to be demand after these people. Not at all limited to computers

But one lesson I learned after my last job is that the best thing is to just play it like you only want to progress the way they need you to, not the way you actually want to. Keep your real goals to yourself, and talk to them like you would talk to NPCs, don't reveal too much about yourself or what you think. Just play it cool and professional the entire time

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

No, I'm not going there. Fuck them. Things and people should orbit around me, not me orbiting around them. I'll create my own thing for myself and make other people orbit around me. They can suck each other off for all I care. Fuck em

I'm not curious about their shit anyway

Edited 12 hours ago by NewKidOnTheBlock

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Not thinking clearly right now. Probably will change my opinion. But man if I had the power. If I had the fuckin power

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

You'd not like it. Let's leave it at that

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I'm not changing the company any time soon tho, that's for sure. At least not for the duration of the Trump's presidency, cause he's a complete retard. Gotta always have something stable to survive economic turbulences (and God knows what) his actions will cause

No more wild acrobatics or fiascos like from the 6 months back, now I gotta play it safe for real. Can't be retarded like that this time