Major Confusion

[yetineti]

Have you seen the movie - Liar liar?

Someone must’ve made a birthday wish on me today - I can’t critically think at all or I am critically thinking through everything immediately. I can’t tell the difference.
 

It’s not nihilism but I’m seeing meaninglessness in every choice but also its own entire meaning.

Very strange, abrupt sense of turbulent behavior.

I’ve been trying to center around my life purpose for weeks, coming to the conclusion that the trying is its own roadblock here.

It’s like I actually gave up my intelligence this morning without notice. I don’t have any answers. I don’t know what to do. I’m the tough guy, the smart one. I feel like the frantic weak character in a movie right now the complete opposite of how I’ve lived my life.
 

I can see how all the paradoxes mesh together and it makes sense that I have this confusion. It is like I knew it was coming, but now that it is here there is obviously nothing I can do.

 

Edited January 26 by yetineti

[yetineti]

I love you all. I am crying. I have no idea what’s in store for me. I don’t know if I want to know. My curiosity has died; it was killed by wonder.

Edited January 26 by yetineti

[yetineti]

I do not know what I came here for. Leo’s trip reports and awakenings resonate with me. Granted, I am not tripping on anything. 

[yetineti]

What am I worried about?

[WelcometoReality]

5 hours ago, yetineti said:

I’ve been trying to center around my life purpose for weeks, coming to the conclusion that the trying is its own roadblock here.

<3 🙏

5 hours ago, yetineti said:

I love you all. I am crying. I have no idea what’s in store for me. I don’t know if I want to know. My curiosity has died; it was killed by wonder.

Love you too!

5 hours ago, yetineti said:

I can see how all the paradoxes mesh together and it makes sense that I have this confusion. It is like I knew it was coming, but now that it is here there is obviously nothing I can do.

Truth my friend!

[Hojo]

You are embracing your intelligence not running. You are running from intellect.

Edited January 27 by Hojo

[yetineti]

@HojoInteresting paradox.

[Hojo]

@yetineti You are not going anywhere you are just changing a consciousness state. You were there when you were a baby, you only know this because you changed consciousness states to become aware that you were a baby. Now you are going back to baby brain but with all the skills you developed.

[yetineti]

@Hojo Precisely.