Seminal Retention and Road to Tanos Blog.

[Schizophonia]

Day 1

I lost a lot of time due to a prolonged period of almost 3 years of severe insomnia where i had between 1 to 4 sleepless nights per week. This insomnia was triggered by a combination of chronic stress, use of stimulants (especially coffee) and even testosterone/DHEA to see if it would improve my physical appearance (actually turned me into a psychopathic beef lol) and my sports performance.
Insomnia literally destroys you, you lose your motivation to do any type of work, your verbal and mental fluency, your humor, your empathy and even your physical appearance; It's really horrible, i can look like a 7 out of 10 on days when I slept particularly well and if possible avoided masturbation and sleeping pills, but otherwise be mistaken for an old heroin addict.

I wasted a lot of time doing nothing and now i don't have much money or a social circle, my life is kind of shit, but that said i can sleep again and the bad sleep cycle is mostly my fault which means i have the energy to be productive again.
I need more money, i want a professional career and/or a hobby, why not a sports career eheh, i want a nice car, i want to express my creativity.

Currently i feel like a person close to forty, i'm not a zombie but i clearly lack energy and libido, vitality in general, i can work, i think i can also more or less defend myself if i am physically attacked, i can do things in general but it's not optimal.

To help me both recover from my insomniac period and actually exploit my full potential i decided to take inspiration from a French youtuber (Thomas Mayer-Chéret) and to (among other things obviously) start seminal retention, it is not my only source but it is my main inspiration, it is one of the only youtubers that i still watch because i find him funny and pleasant to listen to, nevermind.

From a dual and rationalist point of view, seminal retention is supposed to allow the maximum accumulation of metabolic energy. On the one hand by removing the sedative "reward" caused by orgasm (prolactin spike) and then by allowing the accumulation of spermatozoa which it seems can be recycled by the body (hence the use of turmeric in certain spiritual practices, supposedly having the capacity to increase the destruction and recycling of spermatozoa for the benefit of the body (it is therefore not recommended to use too much turmeric if you want a child)).
From a point of view beyond duality, we could precisely say that seminal retention is a bridge from duality to non-duality, from the finite to the infinite; Empirically, deprivation of masturbation gives you the energy to manifest your selfish desires, the first time i had to deprive myself of masturbation for a long time was in high school because of a frenulum plastic surgery (which was not enough lol, which meant that i had to do in fine a circumcision, nevermind), and i who was usually shy, even cowardly, thought for the first time to see a random girl in my class to tell her that i liked her (which was not entirely true, but for some reason i had targeted her😂 ).

In this journal i will of course talk about seminal retention (i hope not to relapse obviously, but that should not happen), but also other subjects that are close to my heart, i spend a lot of time ruminating on many subjects without ever having the courage to put all that into form, this will be the opportunity. This journal is also and above all a way to finally get involved.

I will stop there for this first post, i have to keep some substance for the others eheh; The goal will be to make one post per day.

Edited 13 hours ago by Schizophonia

[Salvijus]

Hero's journey 

[Schizophonia]

1 hour ago, Salvijus said:

Hero's journey 

 

 

[Sugarcoat]

That was so well written you’re intelligent and deep

[Sugarcoat]

I’m doing “semen retention” too but just because I have no libido 

Edited 15 hours ago by Sugarcoat

[Schizophonia]

9 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

That was so well written

Thank you.

I actually want to do videos, but as i've already said to you once i don't want to lay a cringe shit.

So it will be a surprise.

9 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

you’re intelligent and deep

Oh thanks, you're smart too ; A very classy women in general.

13 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

I’m doing “semen retention” too but just because I have no libido 

No it's because you don't produce semen (i hope).

[Sugarcoat]

21 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Thank you.

I actually want to do videos, but as i've already said to you once i don't want to lay a cringe shit.

So it will be a surprise.

Whatever you please

21 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

 

Oh thanks, you're smart too ; A very classy women in general.

Thanks

22 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

 

No it's because you don't produce semen (i hope).

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[Candle]

27 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

No it's because you don't produce semen (i hope).

She produces something else. Some females produce more, others less. Many of them don't know how to mastbate till orgasm. So unfortunate. 

Edit : Posting limits reached today. 

Edited 14 hours ago by Candle

[Schizophonia]

50 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

 

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46 minutes ago, Candle said:

She produces something else. Some females produce more, others less. Many of them don't know how to mastbate till orgasm. So unfortunate. 

That's why i have pianist fingers 

glove snap*

46 minutes ago, Candle said:

Edit : Posting limits reached today. 

And me the limit of dirty jokes.

[Schizophonia]

Day 2 

I'm proud i has been able to sleep 5/6hours tonight, not because i didn't success to sleep more but because i agreed to get up at 6:30 instead of staying in bed like i usually do if I wake up early; It's almost like i could hear my higher self whispering "Hey, do you want to go back or not?" in a somewhat yang way.

The biggest message of insomnia is detachment, the typical energy of self-abandonment that i can find in my father who also sleeps extremely well.

Sleep doctors don't go far enough when they explain to you that you must "agree to don't sleep" to actually break the sleep anxiety and finally be able to eventually fall asleep, they are bad psychoanalysts lol.
The real question is, are you ready to give up everything? Are you ready to never have a job or to suffer there, maybe never have a girlfriend, maybe never do "important" things in general because of fatigue?
And it is paradoxically when you have answered yes to all these questions, all these morbid eventualities, that sleep anxiety and compulsive thoughts finally disappear enough to be able to finally sleep and allowing you to habe the energy to conquer your life. The key is really to stop worrying too much about anything, anything stressful, that involves a power process. Of course this doesn't happen in one day, it's a whole set of fairly neurotic patterns that need to be gotten rid of, i should have seen a psychologist a long time ago but I'm stubborn, i want to manage everything by myself.

 

This is the big difference between "yang" , masculine energy, and "yin" energy, feminine; Men are not more attached to their life than to their power and the libidinal force (who is actually stress, technically) is essentially redirected to cultivate its own deadline. The man wants to cum and if he deprives himself of masturbation, he will lose his mind in work, he will make sure to buy big cars to feel as comfortable as possible, he will naturally seek to find his "cocoon", men are also more comfortable becoming homeless because the worst is not to lack comfort but to be free, but potentially to have comfort but to be a slave to another man.

 

My new goal for today is to practice one hour of visualization per day, and half an hour of meditation.

I want to be financially prosperous but also, as i already said in my first post, physically.
My maya is a bit at the level of Temu when it comes to what he has to offer for health lol; I know all the nootropics and supplements possible and especially for brain health (NSI 189, Dihexa, Cerebrolysin, Semax, Isoxazole-9, Racetams Nicotine and other cholinergic compounds, Methylene Blue, megadoses of vitamin b1, Melatonin...) but all have a certain financial cost and potentially unpleasant side effects, and none seem to have miraculous effects.

It is indeed Joe Dispenza who is the only personality i know who can make people recover their full health even when a stroke has exploded part of their brain, they have had terminal cancer, they suffer from infertility or any autoimmune disease.
Joe is a scientist who rationalizes as much as he can via relative concepts like the placebo effect or epigenetics, but behind this mask which is now essentially there to attract skeptical people he is essentially a non dual thinker and explains here and there that beyond appearances, duals and relatives, it is in fact about becoming sufficiently conscious again via meditation exercises to return to a more divine state and manifest, even materialize results in the maya, even in an urgent condition (from the ego).

Joe or no Joe, meditation seems to be the only practice that yields powerful physical and mental results depending on how it's done, meditation doesn't mean much in itself, and it's free.

 

 

Edited 4 hours ago by Schizophonia