My name is Whitney and I'm from North Carolina

[Whitney Edwards]

I enjoyed the Zumba today. 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

I still have a lot of Breakthroughs to go through. 

[Sugarcoat]

You dont have to answer this if its private but you mentioned you have mental issues may I ask which ones? I just had some curiosity because you have unique behavior on this forum

[Whitney Edwards]

8 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

You dont have to answer this if its private but you mentioned you have mental issues may I ask which ones? I just had some curiosity because you have unique behavior on this forum

Borderline personality disorder and autism. Some form of adhd but slight. My mom is bipolar. And I have CPTSD and suicidal issues from childhood trauma. Also major depression and anxiety and anger issues as a result of trauma. 

[Sugarcoat]

1 minute ago, Whitney Edwards said:

Borderline personality disorder and autism. Some form of adhd but slight. My mom is bipolar. And I have CPTSD and suicidal issues from childhood trauma. Also major depression and anxiety and anger issues as a result of trauma. 

Damn thats a lot. Youre strong for not giving up. I was evaluated for autism but didnt get diagnosed. 

[Whitney Edwards]

2 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Damn thats a lot. Youre strong for not giving up. I was evaluated for autism but didnt get diagnosed. 

I see. 

[Whitney Edwards]

January 28, Tuesday, 2025. 

1:59 AM. Midnight. Night of January 27.

This has been the most memorable day on the forum. What a day!!! I didn't expect the day to end like this. 

So many users flocked to that one thread. Suddenly out of the blue the thread appeared a few hours ago and it was declared that the mod was banned. I had no idea that he was demoted. I saw the thread and I was confused. And now the thread has the attention of everyone glued to it. All mods are on high alert today. What an unusual day. I feel bad for Leo. He had to put up with verbal abuse even though he was trying to be kind. I can't believe how everything unfolded in a matter of just a few hours. Maybe even NoSelfSelf is also dealing with a lot. I mean he was a mod for so many years and it must have been shocking to have been demoted. I can see how tough it is to run a community and for everyone to get along. Shit happens. I also think that warning points over a single comment can be very triggering especially when races are involved, it gets heated up quickly. I just avoid the whole thing because I know how difficult race topics can be. I had no idea things would go down like this. I even could not sleep on time because of this, I was glued to that thread to see any upcoming updates. You can never tell how something might pan out on the forum. Now almost every member from every nook and cranny is commenting on the thread. I don't know how long it will go on but I'm sort of tired of looking at that thread. May God bless everyone. Everyone wants peace and compassion and tranquility. 

Peace. I'll sign off now and go to bed. I had enough forum dose today lol. Today was an eventful forum day. Everyday there's something new to discover or a new event. It's sometimes hard to keep up. We also have our own lives and we cannot be glued to a forum every second. These things will keep going on. Although rarely, it still happens once in a while. The difficulty and perks of being in a multicultural forum. Today must be a heavy day for Leo. I can feel it. Everyone needs a break and some peace. 

Tries to rest in tranquility. I have compassion for everyone, those who received warning points as well as the mod and leo. It was a tough day of emotional ups and downs. Raw emotions coughed up. Nobody to blame. It's just that everyone's emotions got a bit entangled and there was offense felt in all directions. 

Everyone needs space and healing. Me too. I wish the forum better growth. 

Says goodnight to myself. And sleeps well. Calls it a day. 

[Whitney Edwards]

January 28, Tuesday, 2025. 

Woke up early morning. And now thinking what to do next. No zumba today. I was a bit depressed yesterday. 

Now feeling better. 

Things will be fine I guess. 

Time to work on junk food addiction.. I still have a hard time with it.. 

[Whitney Edwards]

Signs of autism. 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

Female autism. 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

I can relate to this. A lot of things tend to overlap between autism and BPD. 

Speech problems. I have a repetitive speech pattern. 

Excessive talking about something that others aren't interested in. I guess this is called Autistic dumping. 

People exhaust me. I always need my me time. 

 

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[Whitney Edwards]

 

 

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[Whitney Edwards]

January 29, Wednesday, 2025. 8.38 am.. 

I didn't sleep well. But that's okay. I spent the whole night fidgeting. 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

I can't fix certain things. That's fine. I also have to follow the rule of the land. There's democracy. There's oligarchy. There's everything. At least I'm safe.