I'm Ranveer.

[Candle]

A fresh start. 

[Sugarcoat]

Hi👋🏻

[Candle]

Just now, Sugarcoat said:

Hi👋🏻

Hi cutie !!! I'm doing a fresh start. Did u read my last journal entry? Hehe. 

[Sugarcoat]

1 minute ago, Candle said:

Hi cutie !!! I'm doing a fresh start. Did u read my last journal entry? Hehe. 

Yea I just read it. The one about closure ?

[Candle]

Just now, Sugarcoat said:

Yea I just read it. The one about closure ?

Yes 😊

[Sugarcoat]

2 minutes ago, Candle said:

Yes 😊

It was vulnerable

[Candle]

15 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

It was vulnerable

Yeah...it was. 

Edited Monday at 10:50 AM by Candle

[Candle]

Imp. Tasks : 

• Studies. 
• Get a job and move out. 
• Hobbies. Books. Videos. Personal Dev. Time Management. Self Growth. Etc. 
• Get yourself back on purpose. (Long term goals and your deepest desires). 

On this forum : 

• List all the important journals and read them in your free time. 
• Meet some people on the forum. 
• Maintain your own journals. 

 

[Schizophonia]

1 hour ago, Sugarcoat said:

Hi👋🏻

Hi buck Edward 👋🏻*

[Yimpa]

8 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Hi buck Edward 👋🏻*

Hi Willy 👋 

[Candle]

On 1/20/2025 at 5:42 PM, Schizophonia said:

Hi buck Edward 👋🏻*

It's okay to joke. But u don't know what pain I am in. After making some big mistakes. After reading some very vulnerable stories.

Btw ..felt good to see ur comments. ❤️ @Yimpa @Schizophonia you guys are sweet. 

Edited Tuesday at 06:27 PM by Candle

[Schizophonia]

20 minutes ago, Candle said:

It's okay to joke. But u don't know what pain I am in. After making some big mistakes. After reading some very vulnerable stories on the forum. 

We shouldn't play with someone's vulnerabilities. 

Btw ..felt good to see ur comments. ❤️ @Yimpa @Schizophonia you guys are sweet. 

Thanks.

I teased because you have a written expression similar to the account i notified, there is no hostile affect it's just curious.

[Candle]

Just now, Schizophonia said:

Thanks.

I teased because you have a written expression similar to the account i notified, there is no hostile affect it's just curious.

Yeah I understood that. Was just telling something. No problem. Chill !! 😄

[Schizophonia]

29 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

Hi Willy 👋 

 

[Candle]

3 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

Thanks.

I teased because you have a written expression similar to the account i notified, there is no hostile affect it's just curious.

I was just a little upset that's why I wrote that. Nothing was wrong with your comment at all. @Schizophonia 

Edited Monday at 04:24 PM by Candle

[Candle]

I am a very empathetic person. When I see some very sad vulnerable stories I feel some emotions deeply. I feel others' emotions so much as if it had happened to me. I feel very sorry. I get very overwhelmed.

I get overwhelmed seeing death or sunset or things like that. (Impermanence).

Not always do I remember them. I chill when I forget them. Ignorance is bliss. 

Both happiness and sadness are parts of life.

God, why are you playing such a mysterious movie? 

Moody songs. (Hindi)

Song 1.

Song 2.

Edited yesterday at 02:58 AM by Candle

[Schizophonia]

5 hours ago, Candle said:

I was just a little upset that's why I wrote that. Nothing was wrong with your comment at all. @Schizophonia 

👍

[Candle]

The kind of life I want.

I currently have a monotonous and lonely life. I have fomo when I see exciting things going on in the external world. When I see other people travelling, socializing, dating, making friends, networking, doing businesses and projects, creating interesting/unusual stories in their lives.

When I see bright and shiny shopping malls, stores, brands, etc. The sexy business that goes on in their backend excites me more than their lustre or shine. And a lot of other things also excite me and give me fomo.

I wanna create too many interesting stories in my life. I want exposure. I wanna be very connected with the world. I want 1000 friends from all over the world. I want massive knowledge. It's very important to do before my death.

[Candle]

Mental health issues. 

Autism. ADHD. Perfectionism. Rumination. Anxiety. Fidgeting. Anger issues. 

Chatgpt. 

Quote

Autistic individuals may experience a variety of symptoms while reading, which can vary depending on the person. Some common symptoms might include:

1. Difficulty with comprehension: Struggling to understand or process the meaning of the text.
2. Difficulty with attention: Trouble staying focused or being easily distracted while reading.📌
3. Repetitive reading: Rereading passages or lines repeatedly, sometimes to make sense of the information.📌
4. Literal interpretation: Understanding text in a very literal way and missing figurative language or nuances.
5. Sensory sensitivities: Being sensitive to the visual aspects of reading, like font size or lighting, or becoming overwhelmed by long reading sessions.📌

Each person with autism experiences reading differently, so these symptoms may not be present in all individuals.

2nd, 3rd, 5th points are very relatable. 

I waste a lot of time rereading simple passages of mine. It's frustrating to see. 

Edited Tuesday at 07:59 AM by Candle

[Candle]

My thinking style.

[ I have to change this ] 

1. I take a lot of time to resolve things in my mind. I can think everything fast, but I don't. So I have to change this. I have to quickly resolve everything in my mind. Because life is short. I don't have time.
2. I think in a very neurotic way which is hard to describe. I think in a very detailed way. Let's say there's some xyz matter or topic, which is unresolved. First thing is : I can't leave that xyz topic unresolved. I just can't. Second thing is : I have to work through all the aspects and all the points of it, till I gain full clarity or resolution. I can't miss a single point. I take too much time because of subtle doubts (that some points might be unresolved or missing.)
3. A lot of tabs (topics, insights, ideas) are created in my mind, and I start doing my most important work only when all tabs are closed.
4. Now I have to make this thinking process super fast. Each time I have to mentally work on a topic, I will say to myself, "do it fast bcz u don't have time, many imp. tasks are pending."  Then it will conclude real quick.