Who here has actually had a proper awakening?

[TruthFreedom]

1 minute ago, cetus said:

With an air of truth to it.

Is comedy the Truth?

Think about it...

[cetus]

1 minute ago, TruthFreedom said:

Is comedy the Truth?

Think about it...

Remember when dogs had balls?

[The Crocodile]

9 minutes ago, TruthFreedom said:

My life prior to this thread was a tragedy.

Now I know it is a comedy! 

Have you seen the second movie? It turns into a tragedy again, or a really dark comedy.

[TruthFreedom]

1 minute ago, cetus said:

Remember when dogs had balls?

They still do sometimes. 

Testicles, as well as toys.

[TruthFreedom]

6 minutes ago, The Crocodile said:

 

6 minutes ago, The Crocodile said:

Have you seen the second movie? It turns into a tragedy again, or a really dark comedy.

@The Crocodile is it worth a watch?

[UnbornTao]

@TruthFreedom It's easy to fool oneself, what's the nature of your enlightenment?

[TruthFreedom]

1 minute ago, UnbornTao said:

@TruthFreedom It's easy to fool oneself, what's the nature of your enlightenment?

I know it's easy to fool oneself.

But I genuinely achieved enlightenment, 

I was laughing hysterically, saying "oh my god" over and over again.

I had been meditating non-stop for weeks. 

[TruthFreedom]

It's easy to assume that some random guy who has an alcohol problem cannot be enlightened, 

But that is a very unenlightened assumption.

[The Crocodile]

12 minutes ago, TruthFreedom said:

@The Crocodile is it worth a watch?

Maybe. It's like a counter-enlightenment, it's just very dark and there's no redemption.

[UnbornTao]

6 minutes ago, TruthFreedom said:

I know it's easy to fool oneself.

But I genuinely achieved enlightenment, 

I was laughing hysterically, saying "oh my god" over and over again.

I had been meditating non-stop for weeks. 

What was the consciousness about? 

[James123]

1 hour ago, TruthFreedom said:

I have had full-on awakenings where I was laughing my ass off.

I was not under the influence of psychedelics.

This was about 6 years ago, and it was an amazing time in my life. But enlightenment does not create permanent happiness. If anything it makes you more isolated, and unable to relate to "normal" people and situations. 

I never made a big deal about my enlightenment. I told a few people and they probably thought it was the rambling of a madman.

Since then I have had two suicide attempts, experienced psychosis, and struggled with alcohol. 

Currently, I don't enjoy what the world has to offer. I live an ascetic, contemplative life. I don't have many friends. It's not depression, it's more like anhedonia. That's why I drink sometimes, because I can enjoy things more.

I always imagined that enlightenment would lead to permanent happiness, but as you can see, this is not the case.

I wonder where I have gone wrong. 

If what Leo says is true, then I am one of only about 10,000 people on the planet who have awakened to this degree.

I wonder what I am supposed to do next.

 

Do you know, the one who is experiences the statements above is illusion itself, in the first place?

[TruthFreedom]

5 minutes ago, UnbornTao said:

What was the consciousness about? 

It was experiencing consciousness in it's purest form, separate from matter,

It was becoming God,

Hence the repetition of the phrase "Oh My God!!"

Best experience of my life

It was multiple spiritual orgasms.

Edited 18 hours ago by TruthFreedom

[cetus]

5 minutes ago, The Crocodile said:

Maybe. It's like a counter-enlightenment, it's just very dark and there's no redemption.

You get what you think.

[Spiral Wizard]

You may have awakened but based on your lifestyle it seems like you are not wholly integrated back into your humanity and society. Feel the resistance and essential pain. There may be something you are avoiding to be with and allow yourself to be with. 

See, based on your post, it seems like you are not totally fine with your current situation, or at least some part of you. Maybe the awakened part is at peace but another part senses that something is not quite right. Otherwise, why post and ask. So see what that part of yourself that is uncomfortable or in resistance to the situation is feeling. Regularly relax deeply for many hours. Lie down and allow. Disregard the thoughts, feel below them. Stay with that energy. Be in pure awareness of those sensations and don't shy away from any uncomfortableness or pain that may be rising to the surface. 

Edited 18 hours ago by Spiral Wizard

[Thought Art]

@TruthFreedom

We tend to over estimate our level of awakening. 
 

Awakening isn’t the only aspect of human existence. If you study Integral Metatheory by Ken Wilbur in his book Towards a Radical Wholeness and Leo’s video on developing happiness maybe that would give you some maps and models. 
 

Awakening is important, but a sober mind and well developed life is the foundation for lasting happiness. 

Edited 18 hours ago by Thought Art

[Thought Art]

21 minutes ago, TruthFreedom said:

It's easy to assume that some random guy who has an alcohol problem cannot be enlightened, 

But that is a very unenlightened assumption.

Perhaps enlightened to a degree… but unwell.

Perhaps there is more practical work to be done for your happiness.

Edited 18 hours ago by Thought Art

[UnbornTao]

15 minutes ago, TruthFreedom said:

It was experiencing consciousness in it's purest form, separate from matter,

It was becoming God,

Hence the repetition of the phrase "Oh My God!!"

Best experience of my life

It was multiple spiritual orgasms.

Not enlightenment; may have confused an state with your nature, keep going.

[TruthFreedom]

5 minutes ago, Thought Art said:

Perhaps enlightened to a degree… but unwell.

Perhaps there is more practical work to be done for your happiness.

I am attempting to achieve unconditional happiness which does not depend on anything external.

I achieved it for a few weeks 6 years ago.

I can't understand why it left me. I thought it would be permanent. 

But for those few weeks I was in pure ecstasy and bliss.

[The Crocodile]

15 minutes ago, cetus said:

You get what you think.

Errrr, no.

I was saying something that would resonate with him.

There are infinite ways of looking at the movie and it doesn't have anything to do with thought.

[cetus]

@Thought Art 

8 minutes ago, Thought Art said:

Perhaps there is more practical work to be done for your happiness.

He's doing what works for him. It's all good.