10g Magic Truffles Trip Report (the most intense trip of my life)

[manuel bon]

Hello everyone, today I will share with you the last psychedelic trip:

Date: 02/12/2024

Location: Netherlands

Set: I was feeling okay, kinda scared and excited for the trip

Setting: My housemate's room

Who: My housemate and I

Time of intake: 3.20 pm 

Type & Dosage: Orange Mystery Mix, 10 grams of fresh sclerotia

Intention: No specific intention, I wanted to let go, and let the truffle guide me

Trip Report:

When my housemate and I ate the truffles, we decided to clean up a bit the kitchen and then lay down in his bed. After 10 minutes I went to the toilet (when I take psychedelics I always have to poop on the come-up), and there is where everything started. It started hitting me pretty hard (the days before I also did strict intermittent fasting, where I would only eat for dinner - so also that probably made me more sensitive to the drug), so I went to bed and lay down. My roommate also started feeling it but not like me.

Before the trip, I mixed a couple of audio, that could guide us in the trip. I combined several tapes from the Gateway Experience so that it would last about 1 hour, and after that, there was music (Colors, the live concert by Eberhard Weber-really great music). 

Overall, the Gateway experience was pretty creepy and when the music started I felt better.

The trip was EXTREMELY intense, I have never experienced something like that. When I lay in bed, the truffle completely grabbed me and my whole essence and did everything it wanted with me. With my eyes open I could see everything as it was (with distortions of course), but I felt as if I wasn't really there. My body was not really mine, and I was in it only partially. With eyes closed, I was 100% somewhere else, in a field of sensations that I have never experienced, and go beyond language, and my level of comprehension. It felt like the psychedelic and I were one, but still, it was kinda separate from it. I felt like it wanted to hurt me, but with time I understood that the more tense I was, the more it would want to scare me. So I had to let myself be vulnerable, and then I would be safe. It was a cycle of vulnerability transforming into fear, changing back to vulnerability. With it, I felt another kind of cycle: it was a kind of "physical" tension that came every time I would let myself be relaxed. What I mean is that the peak of relaxation was also the peak of tension; when I allowed myself to relax I arrived at a point where the relaxation became tension again. The two things were the same.

I learned and understood some things about my personal life and other concepts. It reminded me that I shouldn't judge what people think and feel, everything is valid. I used to know that, and never judge people, but since last summer I started judging again.

I understood that my mind is here with me, and it's fine, it's not my enemy, it's a feature.

I understood that I often take care too much of other people, more than myself, so I have to think of myself first, of my health, both physical and mental.

I also cried when realizing that in different life situations I put on a mask and I kind of pretend of being someone else. I can let myself be myself everywhere, at any place and time.

One of the most important things that I realized, is the following: in the last year or so, I got so involved and attached to spiritual and nondual teachings, that made me really detached from this human reality. Something that at the beginning was a great realization, became something like a burden, or a curse. In that moment of the trip, I realized that my personal life is actually important, and I should live it. 

 

This was a great trip. As I said, it was extremely intense, and despite the good insights, I was on the edge of going crazy.

From that day of the trip, my life has changed a lot. I know that not much time has passed, but living a life where I know about the existence of deeper truths and not looking for them, makes me happier. I am aware and conscious, but my focus is on my life. I understood that this is not for me right now, at this stage of my life. 

I will still keep my spiritual practices and other things, with the goal of great personal development. Other metaphysical truths can wait for later in my life.

Thank you everyone for reading, I send you lots of love!❤️

[Asia P]

It is awesome. Psychedelics told me to relax and try to enjoy as much as possible this life until the death. Your experience makes so much sense to me because bc you realized that you want to build a happy life for yourself trough personal development. Thank you for sharing this 

[manuel bon]

1 hour ago, Asia P said:

It is awesome. Psychedelics told me to relax and try to enjoy as much as possible this life until the death. Your experience makes so much sense to me because bc you realized that you want to build a happy life for yourself trough personal development. Thank you for sharing this 

Thank you Asia for the nice words! Yes I find it really fascinating. I do know that all this was already inside of me, but this experience helped me remember, realize, and integrate all of it. 

[Leo Gura]

Great work!

[Ulax]

Thank you for sharing mate.

Interesting read 🤙