A Life Worth Living

[eos_nyxia]

Time's up.

It's time to no longer treat this life like a trial run.

[eos_nyxia]

TWO FACTORS: (clickbaity science article titles alert)

1) HEART-TO-SKY: the higher, uncontained (by human standards) energy of the solar flares over the last 5-6 years. The auroras (which I had never seen before then, where I live). The regular magnetic pole reversal of the sun. https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/the-suns-magnetic-poles-are-vanishing

2) GROUND-TO-HEART: the continuous magnetic pole shift across my lifetime:  https://www.earth.com/news/magnetic-north-pole-is-moving-faster-than-ever-as-it-races-toward-russia/  

Related to it is this particular anomaly: https://www.sciencealert.com/nasa-is-watching-a-vast-growing-anomaly-in-earths-magnetic-field It is as one heart core, though divided. https://www.sciencealert.com/mysterious-anomaly-weakening-earth-s-magnetic-field-seems-to-be-splitting-into-two  As we are so often as well. Split.

The space for two semi-distinct energies to bleed together rapidly, like an invitation to a welcome opening, or a wound. I cannot help but find it to be beautiful while also being a necessary acceleration. My Self from mid-late 2019 reminded me that I (/we) had to stop flipping up and down between different segregated halves and selves, like an hourglass, turning it over and over again. It is this same type of cycle ending reflected everywhere.

Late 2019. There is so much noise and distortion in the ether, including the sound of a million cacophonous voices and selves, but the will of the core of the Earth rings true and cuts through all. How loud it is for those with ears.

Physically, it's mostly business as usual. Causal effects for life on Earth won't be obvious, easy-to-trace ones; it is not in the domain of scientists. Their domain is to observe and gape at it as it is happening, as that is the doctrine of materialistic empiricism. Otherwise, it impacts everything, biologically, psychologically, emotionally, and subtle energies (though magnetic energies are very coarse and "heavy" in both sound and kinesthetic feel for subtle energy, to the point I would not call it such myself). How could it not? https://www.sciencefocus.com/planet-earth/earth-magnetic-field

It also cuts through everything else, as these are superseding casual factors which govern all life on Earth.

After all, we are the dream of the planet (and vice versa).

It's not even our biggest concern when it comes to biological and psychological dysregulation and entropy either.

Edited January 7 by eos_nyxia
This was originally only the domain of astrology and future telling.

[eos_nyxia]

RIP eos_nyxia.

You won't be missed, and you won't miss anyone.

[Michael569]

@eos_nyxia hey, is everything alright? 👋🏻

[eos_nyxia]

@Michael569 I'm ok! Thank you for asking; I realize how ominous this sounds now, lol.

(The only thing that's dying is my alter ego.)

 

[eos_nyxia]

I've barred myself from complaining about certain things. Most things, really. Still, I am perpetually aware that not complaining about something is not the same thing as truly putting it to rest. Venting was supposed to do something. Occasionally it was constructive, but mostly it was not.

I know I must change the way I think and talk about some of these issues rather than simply avoiding talking about it.

But... how? There is a perilously fine line of balance to walk to make the most out of my talking about it (or to make the most out of not talking at all.)

 

Either way, I do not do it for any of THEM. And if I do, it's only in the most indirect and impersonal ways.

Edited January 25 by eos_nyxia
Still though, isn't there something to gain by extensively observing failure in real time? If I truly believed it was not so, I would not have bothered with that either. And this life sometimes feels like nothing but painful, painstaking sorting.

[eos_nyxia]

But what is the right way to talk about it? I honestly don't exactly know because I've never done it before.

But I do know what is NOT right, so I can work with a rapid process of elimination. It's a start.

[eos_nyxia]

I gave up on being understood years ago. And anyway, I never intended to make this all about myself.

[Michael569]

12 hours ago, eos_nyxia said:

I'm ok! Thank you for asking; I realize how ominous this sounds now, lol.

(The only thing that's dying is my alter ego.)

[Applegarden8]

On 1/24/2025 at 8:16 PM, eos_nyxia said:

RIP eos_nyxia.

You won't be missed, and you won't miss anyone.

Yoo, fellow RIP user here!!!

Glad you are OK.

[eos_nyxia]

On 2025-01-26 at 10:31 AM, Applegarden8 said:

Yoo, fellow RIP user here!!!

Glad you are OK.

Yep, just making my semi-regular visitation back from the grave. How have you been lately?

[Applegarden8]

On 1/27/2025 at 9:58 PM, eos_nyxia said:

Yep, just making my semi-regular visitation back from the grave. How have you been lately?

I am very guilty of coming to this place too!

Still making music, still having neighbor problems, but less acctually. Need some semi-urgent health checkup because of a let's say successful computer tomography scan. Reflecting. And reflecting some more. Have been quitting some addictive stuff while other stuff remains. Idk. Aging. Feeling content with life and death. Feeling the intense momentum that I can have spiritually by living the rest of my life alone, yet seeing people around me rushing to get in relationship, marrying and making children. And of course projecting that on me. Not sure why it bugs me exactly, but I am reflecting, trying to find the root cause/solution to that and not thinking that I should also rush in that direction because of this. Idk, will just be a sage I think, unless I die soon, I am very glad that I did the reflection I did for these few years. I feel I can accept death easy. Can't relate to a lot of people around me, but it's fine. Something like that, how are you?