Pre-Spiritual Path Insight

[Infinite Tsukuyomi]

Before I discovered actualized.org, spirituality or consciousness work I was always curious about the origin of reality. While talking to my ex-boyfriend one night, he asked me "Why are you so obsessed with God?", I was atheist at the time but I liked to talk about it. I always had a desire for Truth ever since I first asked my mother "why do we die?", "are you going to die?", "am I going to die?". Combine that with a later discovery that I was gay (and grew up with Christianity) and you have a nice Truth seeking starter pack. 

I can't remember how I answered my ex's question, but I do remember telling him this random insight I had the day prior. Which was this:

"You know what, I was thinking yesterday that if you met God . . okay, imagine this, let's say God's real. He walks into this room right now, I bet we would instantly dissolve." I further explained that this being would be so powerful that even it's Love would be too much to handle. I don't recall thinking my way to this idea, it just sort of landed on me.

I had a very dualistic idea of God, it hadn't dawned on me at the time that I could be God. The indoctrination and fear of death led to my child like curiosity which eventually led me here in a very non-linear way. And of course while writing this, I think "who are you writing to?" lol.

Gay Hendricks in Conscious Living says "Don't settle for easy answers to the mystery"

Albert Einstein said "Never lose a holy curiosity"   

[cetus]

1 hour ago, Infinite Tsukuyomi said:

hadn't dawned on me at the time that I could be God.

 

1 hour ago, Infinite Tsukuyomi said:

who are you writing to?" lol.

 God as a singularity divides itself into the many as an expression of absolute Love. "You" are an expression of God's Love. "We" are an expression of God's Love. 

Edited January 6 by cetus