My name is Whitney

[Whitney Edwards]

January 15 2025. Wednesday 

I'm just trying to rest. I need to go tomorrow and submit my documents to the office. I need originals as well as a copy. I need to wake up early and make everything ready. Hopefully I won't need to pay money. I have less cash and I won't have much time to go to the ATM. 

I'm trying not to be anxious and I'll sleep early today. 

I also need to get a prescription this week or next week. 

I need to pay a bill tomorrow. 

My urine was completely clear today. I need to drink a lot of water. 

I need to look deeper into the problem of my nightmares and the reason behind them. The exact reasons. I'm planning to use ChatGPT and various versions of it a little more. Today made 1 thread and a journal for it. Strictly use ChatGPT. I want something free and something I can consistently rely on.. Also I'll need better strategic prompts to get better personalized output. More intuitive output. 

Also learn by observing why I get nightmares at specific sleep times. 

 

Edited January 15 by Buck Edwards

[Whitney Edwards]

January 16, Thursday, 2025 

Just woke up. Woke up late today. I'm not sure if I slept late. But I woke up at 4 am and then went back to bed once again.. 

Just paid the bill. 

I have another bill to pay. 

I need to go to office today. Between 8 am - 10.30 am. 

I need to have breakfast now.. 

Later I'll try to use ChatGPT if I ever get time.

 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

January 16, Thursday, 2025 

I ordered breakfast just now from a nearby restaurant. 

[Whitney Edwards]

January 16, Thursday, 2025 

Work completed at the police station. 

Now I'm on my way home. 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

 

Ordered 5 coconuts and they delivered it to my door. 

 

 

 

(Reached home finally. Omg so exhausted.) 

On the way there was too much traffic that I had to drive through. 

Coconuts are my lifesaver. I'm so dehydrated right now. I need to eat something before I go to bed. 

Today's work and goal is completed. 

Phew. Enjoys a reward. Tomorrow I have Zumba class, hope I won't forget. I haven't paid the bill yet. Reminds myself to pay it later. 

I also need to book my  doctor's appointment. I'll be getting my passport next week.

 

[Whitney Edwards]

January 16, Thursday, 2025 

 

 

Won in Tokyo. After a long time. 

 

Edited January 16 by Buck Edwards

[Whitney Edwards]

Memory loss must feel painful. Sometimes I wonder if my mother will develop dementia. She forgets a lot these days. 

 

 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

 

January 16, Thursday, 2025 

It's too late right now and my goals for today were achieved. I'm happy. Today I vented a lot to my husband and I'm glad he was a patient listener. He understands me. He is my gift. I'm happy to have him. 

I'll sleep now. Because it's too late. I stayed up a bit late. I also wrote a lot of insights in my journal that will hopefully help in my recovery and in understanding myself better. I dealt with some of the issues that were discussed in the mental health section and I am extremely glad that I opened up about it and did psychoanalysis on my own self. That is brilliant. I need to psychoanalyse myself like that everyday and become my own therapist. That will be my next goal. 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

My journal is my only non-judgmental space I get to enjoy. 

[Whitney Edwards]

Hopefully I don't wake up tomorrow to some horror show. 

[Whitney Edwards]

I ate healthy today. Right now I have the craving to drink coconut water. But I might not. I'll wait till tomorrow. But I still got cravings. 

[Whitney Edwards]

(Last night I ate cake) 

 

I woke up a few minutes ago. Like 20 minutes. I didn't get enough sleep. And I need to attend my Zumba class. My husband is still asleep. 

 

 

Edited January 17 by Buck Edwards

[Whitney Edwards]

 

Just returned back home from Zumba class. Feels better. 

I might nap because I'm exhausted from the dance routine. 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

Just don't take nonsense from others. 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

 

Had coffee. Had nightmares about my ex. Don't know why that happened. 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

 

 

Feeling a bit better now. I was a bit stressed out before. Because of the nightmares. 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

 

Ordered eggs just now. 

[Whitney Edwards]

 

 

I ate eggs for dinner. And pancakes. 

I'm still feeling some frustration and stress. 

[Whitney Edwards]

 

 

Time to go to bed. Says goodnight to myself. I love my new time table. 

I took my night meds. 

Today was an okayish day. 

I'm my hubby's carrot. 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

I just woke up. Woke up super early. Don't know why. Maybe bathroom break. I don't know remember getting nightmares. The next thing is to book an appointment with a psychiatrist for my fresh prescription. My mom and me take the same meds. We have similar mental issues. Hers is bipolar disorder. Mine is borderline. 

My stress is gone. Solution was to listen to some entertainment crap on YouTube and distract myself from stressful thoughts. 

 

I ordered a shit ton of junk food yesterday. Not good. Not good. My husband is helping me stay off it. 

Edited January 17 by Buck Edwards