My name is Whitney

[Buck Edwards]

 

 

I ate eggs for dinner. And pancakes. 

I'm still feeling some frustration and stress. 

[Buck Edwards]

 

 

Time to go to bed. Says goodnight to myself. I love my new time table. 

I took my night meds. 

Today was an okayish day. 

I'm my hubby's carrot. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

I just woke up. Woke up super early. Don't know why. Maybe bathroom break. I don't know remember getting nightmares. The next thing is to book an appointment with a psychiatrist for my fresh prescription. My mom and me take the same meds. We have similar mental issues. Hers is bipolar disorder. Mine is borderline. 

My stress is gone. Solution was to listen to some entertainment crap on YouTube and distract myself from stressful thoughts. 

 

I ordered a shit ton of junk food yesterday. Not good. Not good. My husband is helping me stay off it. 

Edited Friday at 10:08 PM by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

 

[Buck Edwards]

January 18, Saturday, 2025

My mom went to the supermarket to get fish. Meanwhile I sneaked out and went to the store and got ice cream and snacks. Glad she didn't spot me because she was in an adjacent store lol.

 

[Buck Edwards]

I want to go to Hawaii. 

[Buck Edwards]

January 18, Saturday, 2025

I ate a lot today. Don't know why. Just finished lunch. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

 

Woke up from a nap. These days I'm napping a bit more than usual lol. Don't know why. It could be my meds. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

 

 

Took my meds. 

Right now trying to think what I can do for the next week. I think my anxiety will stay until I get my passport. 

 

 

 

[Buck Edwards]

I have been able to maintain a consistent time table since I don't know how long. 

[Lucasxp64]

On 03/01/2025 at 10:48 AM, Buck Edwards said:

So pickup is approach. And game is building charisma. In short.

 

Pickup is a term that is ALMOST ALWAYS seen being used for short-term encounters. Keep in mind that generally the term "pickup" is related to the "pickup community", it has a lot of toxicity and emotional immaturity. It's like going out just to get girls fast. That community tends to let go of any ethical standards and consideration for their feelings. Leo Gura did a rant against the "pickup community". This is why I like to avoid using it, I don't want it related to that toxicity.

• "Approach" is much more specific and neutral.
• "Pickup" Includes the whole interaction, from the approach phase, to seduction, to having sex.

Similarly, how I'd avoid using "incel" terminology, but I do use it sometimes when appropriate... But I'm still a little concerned about it, like the term "LooksMaxxing" (I avoid using it publically)

But those terms are always kinda fuzzy, and getting too caught up in terminology sucks you into ideology: i.e. "Black Pill / Incel" ideology generates the most toxic garbage terminology you could imagine, it's basically a cult. But it's not like I don't use the term sometimes in my person notes, but generally I say: "Don't get sucked into that black pill garbage". Because I do make fine distinctions in the role that physical attributes play, there is no terminology out there that encompasses my specific circumstances, the kind of woman I want, and how I see my dynamics between them and me.

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Cold Approaches, is a more neutral term.

I would use that term for "approaching a woman with intent of making her my girlfriend". Although, it could be "Approaching a woman with intent of a short-term encounter only" but Pickup would be more appropriate.

Since I'm looking for a girlfriend, because I don't want to endlessly just waste my time with a bunch of short-term relationships, my goal isn't necessarily to just "pickup" but to "Find / Approach them, build rapport as much as possible, and begin meeting my romantic, sexual and companionship needs". Although, what is the difference between "a player" and a guy that wanted a long-term relationship, but it just didn't work out? Mostly in the intention in his head.

GAME

The term "GAME" I use much more often as an umbrella term for every interaction between man-woman for the sake of romantic and sexual interests, but mostly focused at the initial encounter/seduction phase, which I struggle abysmally unless I do it online. Even within a marriage or a committed relationship, there is a dynamic, there are always dynamics, like how the owner behind the YouTube Channel "PsycHacks" wrote in his book "The Value of Others" ("A relationship is where exchange of value happens").

There are things I which I can't be giving knee-jerk reactions, I need to thoughtfully think of seductive and reassuring ways of saying things to keep her romantic and sexual feelings for me, and keep our relationship smooth. "Seduction" can be used for higher or lower values. That is still game.

• Game encompasses "Game Theory" (Strategy), but also "Having fun, playing for fun, playful interaction"
• "pickup" which is closer to "not taking it seriously, taking it just as a game".

 

Below is some responses of a conversation I had with Pi.AI (It's the most emotionally intelligent chatbot). Much better than ChatGPT for this kind of stuff I think.

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While pickup is often focused on the short-term, “game” encompasses a broader range of techniques for attracting and seducing women, some of which could be used in the service of finding a long-term partner. So in that sense, game is a bit of an umbrella term that can include pickup, but also goes beyond it.

In theory, pickup can happen through any means of communication. 🤖 Cold approaching is the classic mode—striking up a conversation with a stranger in a bar, on the street, etc.—but there are other ways.

 

Edited 15 hours ago by Lucasxp64