My name is Whitney

[Whitney Edwards]

Manosphere tactics. I like that. 

 

 

 

 

 

Leo almost saved my life. I was gonna lose my being and life with someone who constantly manipulated and blackmailed me. Leo told me to break up with him. I was very confused in that relationship. It had destroyed me. 

 

 

Time for a break.

 

 

Edited January 7 by Buck Edwards

[Whitney Edwards]

I acted foolish and I can't fix my past. I just have to let it go. There are just too many things that haunt me. 

 

 

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I have seen irresponsible people in my life. I just wish them the best. That's all I can do. I can't afford to give advice to people when my own life is in limbo. Also it feels a bit shameful of me to offer advice to people when my own life is not in order. Like who am I? Right? It's like a person who is not even in a relationship giving relationship advice to people? It will be absurd. Or someone who has no medical knowledge acting like a doctor!!! It's ridiculous. I am slowly realizing how much bashing I needed in the last 2-3 years of my life. I was suffering so much that I needed to be hospitalized. I was going through a lot, largely because of my family. 

Most successful people actually leave their families and live independently and that's how they prosper. I mean I can't see any other way. Toxic families ruin your mental state and health. 

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I will always keep Leo's guidance in mind. This is going to be a long list of my thoughts and a mix of my perspectives on life, dating, my past, my fixations, my goals, my frustrations and problems.. Just a gist of it. Letting it out gives me a meta picture of my life. It's like self therapy. 

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My perspective on dating —

This is about some questions that some men asked me in the past regarding dating.... 

My frank advice. This might appear rude. But it's brutal honesty on my part. 

If you are someone who is struggling with your career or your footing in life, why are you even thinking about having a girlfriend? How is that gonna fix your life? Why are these men fixated on approaching and wanting women? It appears weird because you're only going to over complicate your life with a relationship when your life is already in the middle of deep unrest and struggle. You want your sexual and emotional needs met. But dating is effing hard... Even for men. Only the struggles are different. But it's hard for both gender. You have to build your life first. Or have a non complicated girlfriend. Most women are hard to figure out, even for us women. Women are very different from one another. We have a biology that sets us in a very different way from men. We simply cannot look at life and gender and sex the way men do. And our programming as women is wired from 1000s of years. How can this change to appeal to men suddenly? We were survival oriented in our own feminine and womanly way. A woman will always want her agenda — it's her survival. She is not a bed of flowers. Or your pet. She is a woman with her own set of psychological, emotional, mental, sexual, security and treatment needs. Every woman wants to be treated differently. Maybe some women like to argue, some do not. Some women want more sex, some do not. Every woman is carved a different way. So it's sort of funny when men put all women in the same box. What's the point? It's a fruitless exercise. You have to understand your woman. Because she is your woman. Her needs are gonna be different from another woman. But first you have to have her in your life. Next is responsibility. A woman is a responsibility, not a burden. This is a fact. It's unchangeable. You might admire a woman at first because of all the satisfaction and emotions and ego boost she gives you. Yet she is a woman. So she has needs like any human being. Are you capable of satisfying her needs? As your relationship with her progresses, there will be more needs. She might want to be the mother of your child. She might want children. She might need money. She might need you emotionally. She might need you sexually. You gotta ask yourself an honest question — are you ready for all of this? The fact of the matter is that most guys aren't. They treat relationship like a candy or a trip to the beach. Chances are that you can't really fulfill her the way she wants to be fulfilled. Whether it's a first world country or a third world country, a woman is a woman everywhere. A woman gives birth to babies. She has to raise them. Modern women have more pressures, they need to have a stable career on top of handling domestic responsibilities of children and family. How do you think she can do that? A woman is a woman. This fact won't change with time. It has remained the same for thousands of years. Women have needs for self sufficiency, community, society, health,kids, survival. We need dependable men. We need men who understand us. Even if a woman is not financially dependent on you, she has some basic expectations from you. She wants a wholesome relationship from you. She wants maturity in you. She will hate it if you act like a man baby. She will hate it if you always want her to step up and you never lead. 

 

 

 

Edited January 7 by Buck Edwards

[Whitney Edwards]

Woke up early this morning and then fell asleep again. Yesterday evening I had decided that I will do a task which I had been putting off for days and I got it done. Feels so freeing a bit. Today I will definitely ask my sister about certain things. 

I have my passport work coming up. I need to do it diligently. 

 

This year has begun well. 

                                

 

[Whitney Edwards]

 

                                

I like my new name — malicious moth. So funny and cute and malicious at the same time. Ahhhhh. I want to be in the mountains, away from humanity and all the 

[Whitney Edwards]

Be away from traffic lol. 

[Whitney Edwards]

I'm so uncomfortable right now. I don't like anything about the forum right now. It feels dull, the same boring debates. What did i get. 

[Whitney Edwards]

My sister needs to help me out about certain things. 

[Whitney Edwards]

I'll stay off the forum completely and block all notifications. I'm fed up with certain things. They are disturbing. 

[Whitney Edwards]

I need lots and lots of rest. I feel like I'll faint. Nothing feels good. Other than my husband. 

I have been so exhausted. 

I just don't like anything. Certain things are just depressing. 

Edited January 8 by Buck Edwards

[Whitney Edwards]

I need to work extra hard for the next couple of days. 

 

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Recipe for dehydration. 

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[Whitney Edwards]

I found an excellent way  of avoiding the forum. 

Edited January 8 by Buck Edwards

[Whitney Edwards]

Woke up early morning today. And I feel like I need to attend to some things. 

Feels heavy. 

[Whitney Edwards]

One of the problems is that I wake up too early. 

Hmm. And then I feel sleepy. I can talk to my sister today. 

[Whitney Edwards]

I want to sit in a garden right now but I also feel like eating.