Absolute Total Sleepless Journal

[The Crocodile]

This is not a case of instability or pointless insanity necessarily but rather of spiritual determination, indomitable vital energy, and power.

The goal is acquisition of power and knowledge.

Abstract power and concrete power, abstract knowledge and concrete knowledge.

 

[The Crocodile]

Start-time: Mon Dec 30 7:43 PM 2024

Indefinite sleeplessness and full luminous activity and power-knowledge begins now.

[Thought Art]

Do you mean actual sleep or a spiritual sleep?

[The Crocodile]

Just now, Thought Art said:

Do you mean actual sleep or a spiritual sleep?

I mean actual physical sleep forgoing, yeah.

When you go without sleep vital energies from all across the universe pour into your body, and you become sort of disconnected from the human experience but can view it from outside. And then as regards infinite interconnections of planet Earth sleep deprivation definitely seems to be related to that since you step outside spatiotemporal confines of the normal human perception human experience but can project yourself into all of it in all years, all densities and various eternal and infinite expressions and loops and stories and events, properties, qualities of consciousness. You can thrust yourself into all of it.

*also I want physically tangible superpowers, so the physical vessel must push itself past the limits of human endurance, and past the limits of all logic and reason. The mind must push itself past the limits of all logic and reason and nest itself in a higher consciousness with a Force that governs and empowers.

 

[UnbornTao]

Relax, breathe from your belly.

Edited December 31, 2024 by UnbornTao

[Thought Art]

@The Crocodile Sleep deprivation is extremely dangerous and damaging to the body, brain and nervous system. I would highly advise not doing this as a spiritual practice.

[The Crocodile]

13 hours ago, UnbornTao said:

Relax, breathe from your belly.

There's no contradiction between that and anything said. That's already what I do anyway, and it's necessary for the body to sleepwalk or shift off to other realities. Or relax the body as deeply as sleep consciously rather than unconsciously.

[The Crocodile]

Twenty-minute timer for medial asana: strong energy in the body, but defect in relaxation, not as powerful as sleep. (image of laughing boy)

The force that moves the visual energy is the same that moves the tactile energy, it's an invisible descending force: the pattern is the same. When the visual energy is big and bright enough and persistent in life enough obviously it electrically is strong enough to affect the rest of the mind-body-perception system and nervous system: the force responsible for such big and bright visuals gains entry to the physical body and to the mind, and the visuals seen in the eyes are causally next to everything else and can even be bigger and brighter than the normal physical sight and spatial orientation-perception.

For the results of the twenty minutes:

defect in relaxation

acceptable laghima-sense as regards beginnings or degree of attempt

acceptable mahima-sense

somewhat defective but fully acceptable anima-sense

Next twenty minutes will focus exclusively on how the pattern of energy responsible for both the visual and tactile effects (we'll call this the Bindu) can facilitate deeper, less defective relaxation in the hope of getting something more powerfully restoring and rejuvenating than sleep.

[The Crocodile]

Twenty minutes resulted in sufficiently seen skill of conscious relaxation. Here's the kicker: the problem was never not enough relaxation, it was the cause of physical pain and physical frustration you get if you remain conscious in the asana. If I remained like that for eight hours I would get enough relaxation, but physical pain would remain or a lack of physical restoration. Sleep is under usual habit required to "dislodge" the muscles from that through unconsciousness and disorganization, but now it must be over the next twenty-minute session learned to be done consciously and in an organized way.

As regards to the visual-tactile connection I can say this: If energy is used to visually draw a shape such as a slanted line or a triangle or a pyramid even, then that shape will be tactilely felt in the body--undeniable connection. None of this is pretended in the "mind's eye", it's actually visible and actually tangible.

Because of the storming of the visible energy, there is necessarily the cause or source of its energizing power and dynamic movement, it comes from "above" and affects the body too. When the visible energy is placed inside the body then it's even stronger, as now there is an "all-levels connection". Again we'll call the source the Bindu.

[The Crocodile]

You can conscious-ensleepen certain parts of the body where every spatial size of the body infinitely spirals out, is everywhere and nowhere, and everything collapses into nothingness. You do that with the nose and the nose at every scale of size, and then you no longer have a sense of having a nose. You do that with the lower back and then the lower back no longer has pain, or the lower back is asleep or completely put out of it. A total conscious sleep is where you would do this with the whole body.

Doing this while standing up is the key. Nailing down what I already got lying down, and shifting it over to sitting, standing, and eventually walking positions and even running--full total relaxation and rejuvenation from running. A total reversal of evolutionary habit and human ordinary inertia.

Edited December 31, 2024 by The Crocodile

[UnbornTao]

@The Crocodile Your mind is all over the place, doing weird stuff. So, breathe, relax. You seem to resist what's mundane and may want to appear unconventional.

Edited January 1 by UnbornTao

[The Crocodile]

@UnbornTao I don't care about external validation at all, so much so that I might ask you to not read or comment here again. But if you do maybe actually try to read and understand the content of what I said.

Also your idea of spirituality is just unhappy city people pretending to do something significant, when they're just pretending. "Be here now" type pretending. Like I told you I already breathe extremely slowly and shallowly from my stomach, except it's actually a delta or theta state, not something like a beta pretend self-improvement "happy and healthy" state. If I were to breathe it would be intentional pranayams.

Also you saying my mind is "all over the place" is just you having trouble with assumptions.

[UnbornTao]

@The Crocodile Fair enough. In any case, deep breathing is also essential. 

Happy new year!

Edited January 1 by UnbornTao

[The Crocodile]

11 minutes ago, UnbornTao said:

@The Crocodile fair enough. In any case, I'd say deep breathing is also important. 

Happy new year!

 Happy new year!