I had a new awakening and it is so scary.

[Asia P]

While i was doing meditation (without psychedelics) i realized in a very deep way, that life has no meaning, neither phisical or spiritual purpose.

It was so scary to feel that i m completely alone inside this state of consciousness. It was scary to feel how death is, because in that state of consciousness i've realized that my entire life is nothing, in that moment i was the nothing. Being alone scares my ego so much. How i can overcome this feeling? Do i have to accept the death of my ego? It is so difficuilt actually, because reality forces me to have a sense of ego to survive. 

[Breakingthewall]

Good, it's the first stage to real opening. You have to face this emptiness again and again until you are more or less comfortable with it. No meaning, no content, absolute void. Be confident in that it's just a stage, after the void the whole opens and you are that. 

[Asia P]

@Breakingthewall how do i become comfortable with this void? Only by facing it many times? 

[Asia P]

@Breakingthewall i just want love. i want to feel like a child caressed by his mother. How do i find love in loneliness?

[Breakingthewall]

42 minutes ago, Asia P said:

@Breakingthewall i just want love. i want to feel like a child caressed by his mother. How do i find love in loneliness?

There is not love there, it's absolutely scary and depressive, close to horrible, but it's the barrier between the human and the divine. It's like death, but if you are able to open yourself to it without any reservation, your heart opens and in it there is everything, the source. If you have had that experience it's because for you it's easy to get deep states of detachment of the human, so go for it, search the void and the infinite loneliness as much as you can, in it is what you are looking for , but not being loved, it's being life, be love

Edited December 27, 2024 by Breakingthewall

[WelcometoReality]

@Asia P True but it was true all along wasnt it? Nothing has changed except you realizing it? Yet you've created meaning your whole life. Can you see the freedom in that? Freedom to create any meaning you want.

 

[Breakingthewall]

@Asia P   

This is a very delicate subject, people don't understand the scope of letting go of all their human ties, you do understand it, because you saw the absolute emptiness, the absence of meaning, the total loneliness, you have looked in the face the limitless void that opens before you. People say blah blah but they have never done it, they always grab something. God, anything. But you saw the void, I totally understand it. Then the only possibility is open yourself to the void, dissapear in it and open yourself, not be you anymore. It's extremely difficult, a lot of hindrances. It's here and now, not in another planet or moment, but the mind is running and running, attaching you with fear to make you an structure. Go deep in this work is crazy 

[Asia P]

24 minutes ago, WelcometoReality said:

@Asia P True but it was true all along wasnt it? Nothing has changed except you realizing it? Yet you've created meaning your whole life. Can you see the freedom in that? Freedom to create any meaning you want.

 

Im not sure that i can create and control the reality...i dont know if i have this power if i dont even exist as an ego. I m only able to see this moovie in front of my consciousness

[Asia P]

@Breakingthewall

2 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

@Asia P   

This is a very delicate subject, people don't understand the scope of letting go of all their human ties, you do understand it, because you saw the absolute emptiness, the absence of meaning, the total loneliness, you have looked in the face the limitless void that opens before you. People say blah blah but they have never done it, they always grab something. God, anything. But you saw the void, I totally understand it. Then the only possibility is open yourself to the void, dissapear in it and open yourself, not be you anymore. It's extremely difficult, a lot of hindrances. It's here and now, not in another planet or moment, but the mind is running and running, attaching you with fear to make you an structure. Go deep in this work is crazy 

Is actually crazy dude. I get what ur telling. But now i dont understand why being alive instead of committing suicide

[WelcometoReality]

6 minutes ago, Asia P said:

Im not sure that i can create and control the reality...i dont know if i have this power if i dont even exist as an ego. I m only able to see this moovie in front of my consciousness

Well then if you don't exist as an ego then what do you exist as?

[Breakingthewall]

7 minutes ago, Asia P said:

@Breakingthewall

Is actually crazy dude. I get what ur telling. But now i dont understand why being alive instead of committing suicide

The thing in another words is that you realized that the form is just form, with nothing else behind. It's transparent, like an hologram, has not meaning. You were totally attached to the meaning, same than me or anything else. When you perceive the absence of meaning you perceive the absence of everything, but that's the vision of a drug addict that is in the paradise and there is not cocaine, then he perceive that there is nothing. There is no meaning, but there is substance. The substance is the reality, it's real, exist. It's you. You are not a person, are the substance of the reality, the person is form, and you already saw that the form is empty, then only the substance remains. Open yourself to it and that's it. What prevents the realization of the true nature is the form. If the form reveals as empty loose it's strength 

Why not commit suicide? Because seems that it's a path that we have to follow, it's not just form, it's the flow of the reality 

Edited December 27, 2024 by Breakingthewall

[Breakingthewall]

And then, when you can be out of the form, just open to the moment for long, without any interpretation, you can intuit the absolute. The absolute is not energy, or flowing, or conciousness, it's what you are beyond the conciousness, the real thing, the source of the conciousness. 

[Breakingthewall]

And I think that more is possible. I think it's possible be totally open to the absolute in another level. The absolute is unthinkable, is what you are, what is hidden in your heart, the big mistery, the reality 

[Breakingthewall]

This is the path of life, the movement what we are doing. It's so twisted that's seems a joke, it seem designed to be difficult, like a very difficult mental game where you have to coordinate the external and the internal 

Edited December 27, 2024 by Breakingthewall

[M A J I]

5 hours ago, Asia P said:

While i was doing meditation (without psychedelics) i realized in a very deep way, that life has no meaning, neither phisical or spiritual purpose.

It was so scary to feel that i m completely alone inside this state of consciousness. It was scary to feel how death is, because in that state of consciousness i've realized that my entire life is nothing, in that moment i was the nothing. Being alone scares my ego so much. How i can overcome this feeling? Do i have to accept the death of my ego? It is so difficuilt actually, because reality forces me to have a sense of ego to survive. 

Life by default has no meaning, you are what give it meaning, you are the majician, you have the paintbrush in your hand, and life is what you make it.

Keep up the meditation, practice surrender, the more you can surrender the ego, the more you merge with the true self, then that "aloneness" will fell ALL ONENESS Keep going, spend time in nature, enjoy the little things, do what you love, dance with life, make love to life itself.

Then you will get the things you desire because the mirror never smiles first.

 

[Hojo]

You see that the fear is a trick of Satan. Its always been this way you have already come to terms with it. The voice in your head is not real the voice telling you its scary is not real.

Smoke weed it will force your brain into panic mode. Sit there and pay attention to all the lies it tells you. You know everything the voice says is not happening.

Edited December 28, 2024 by Hojo

[Javfly33]

17 hours ago, Asia P said:

 i realized in a very deep way, that life has no meaning, neither phisical or spiritual purpose.

That was thought/mind. 

Realization could have happened, but after-interpretation (mind activity) recreates self.

That´s why you can have 500 Samadhis in your lifetime and still Enlightment doesn't happen. 

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It was so scary to feel that i m completely alone inside this state of consciousness.

Reaction to limited thought (In this case: I'm completely alone inside this state of consciousness.)

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It was scary to feel how death is, because in that state of consciousness i've realized that my entire life is nothing, in that moment i was the nothing.

The Nothing that you are is beyond the word nothing.

Because the word nothing itself has meaning, in this case as you can see your mind interprets as something negative. 

Seeker: So Is empty? 

Buddha: Not Empty.

Seeker: Nothingness?

Buddha: Not Nothingness.

Edited December 28, 2024 by Javfly33