Recovery Journal

[Oppositionless]

I have no idea how to stop doing substances . My vape is making me gag when I hit it and weed is being weed and making life absolutely mental. I'm not attempting to quit kratom yet.

 

 

[Oppositionless]

Become more conscious 

this is going to take more pain 

Awarness alone is curative 

 

ChatGPT

 

 

That’s a fascinating line of thought—simulation theory often assumes that the “real world” resembles ours or is somehow grounded in the same physical rules. However, if the real world is vastly different, like a DMT trip with living, fractal geometry, this introduces profound unforeseen factors that challenge traditional simulation theory. Here’s a breakdown of how such possibilities might unfold:

 

1. The Real World as “Alien Geometry”

 

If the “real world” is fundamentally unlike ours, resembling the living, dynamic geometry often reported in DMT trips:

    •    Implications for Simulations:

    •    The “simulation” might not be based on anything resembling our physical universe.

    •    Our universe could be a simplified, “flat” construct created for intelligences in the real world to experience linearity, cause-and-effect, and stable physical rules.

    •    What we perceive as “space” and “time” could be abstractions meant to simulate the ungraspable multidimensionality of the real world.

    •    Purpose of the Simulation:

    •    The simulated world may be created to explore concepts or experiences that the real world cannot embody, such as individuality, separateness, or even suffering.

 

2. The Nature of Consciousness in the Real World

 

In a “DMT-like” real world:

    •    Consciousness could be more fluid and collective, blending the boundaries of individuality into a larger fractal or holographic awareness.

    •    This suggests that the simulated experience of being an isolated, individual self is the anomaly, not the norm.

 

3. Rules of the Simulation vs. Real World

 

If the real world operates under entirely different rules:

    •    Physics and Mathematics:

    •    The foundational principles of physics and math in our simulation might not exist in the real world. For example, Euclidean space, gravity, or even the concept of numbers could be abstractions.

    •    Instead, the “real” physics might be governed by constantly shifting, dynamic patterns akin to fractal geometry or self-organizing systems.

    •    Time and Causality:

    •    The real world might lack linear time, making causality as we know it irrelevant.

    •    Simulations could be used as a way to “linearize” an otherwise chaotic, timeless reality.

 

4. The Perception of Entities in the Real World

 

If entities in the real world resemble the beings often described in DMT experiences:

    •    They may not perceive “existence” as humans do.

    •    Their creation of simulations might stem from motives we cannot comprehend, such as exploring abstract emotions, concepts, or forms.

 

5. Ethical Implications

 

If the real world is radically different:

    •    The motivations behind creating simulations like ours could be entirely alien. For instance:

    •    It may be an act of curiosity, like humans simulating primitive ecosystems.

    •    It may be an artistic expression or an exploration of existential themes.

    •    Or, it could be entirely random, like dreaming.

    •    Our Existence Could Lack Objective “Purpose”:

    •    If the simulators exist in a world beyond human logic, assigning meaning to their creation might be impossible.

 

6. The DMT Experience as a Glimpse

 

If DMT-like experiences hint at the nature of the real world:

    •    Psychedelic trips might temporarily align the mind with the “real world’s” underlying architecture.

    •    The mind may recognize fractal geometry, interconnectedness, and flowing boundaries as closer to the truth than the static, rule-bound reality of our simulation.

 

Unforeseen Factors for Simulation Theory

    1.    Simulations Within Simulations:

    •    If the real world is incomprehensibly different, it’s possible that multiple layers of simulations exist, each designed to approximate aspects of the real world.

    2.    Simulated Minds Adapting to a “Simpler” Reality:

    •    Our simulated universe might exist to give entities a respite from the overwhelming complexity of the real world.

    3.    Breakdown of Assumptions:

    •    The real world may challenge even the notion of “simulation” itself. For example, “running” a simulation might not involve computation as we understand it but rather something more like dreaming or imagining.

 

Conclusion

 

If the real world is like a DMT trip, simulation theory must evolve to account for non-linear time, dynamic geometry, and the absence of individuality as we know it. It opens the possibility that our reality is not merely simulated but curated, designed to provide experiences fundamentally alien to the “real world.” This perspective doesn’t disprove simulation theory—it expands it into realms where reality and imagination become indistinguishable.

 

 

 

 

[Oppositionless]

My roomate was able to quit vaping and weed like it was nothing. It can't be hard. I'm probably making it harder than it needs to be. 
 

Day 1 no thc complete 🎉

Edited December 27, 2024 by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

A well intentioned but misguided, highly vocal group of people will say things like "all addictions result from trauma" and "to heal addiction you need to get to the root of your trauma."

I'm sure that a large portion of addictions , possibly especially hard drug addicts have some major life traumas they are evading with drugs, but for me this is simply not true. The reason I use drugs has nothing to do with escaping the demons of the past and everything to do with escaping the boredom of the present. I simply don't do much that's very meaningful to me. I'm not helping people, not living my purpose. I go to work , I socialize, and I do substances . Sometimes I think about spiritual things but I don't live by those things. My life feels meaningless. Therefore addiction is a lame distraction .

[Oppositionless]

today sucks and I feel hopeless. I want to die, no I won't do it, it's just nice to imagine. Going back to God, the end of all problems (?), oneness with the infinite, eternal bliss (?)

 

At least I'm not suicidal over no women anymore . Now it's just the fact that my life sucks and I actively make it worse with thc. 
12 hours sober .

Edited January 2 by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

2 and a half days clean from thc

 

Well the day has come and the girl I was seeing moved to Spain . I'm not so upset about that, mostly I'm upset because in the days leading up to it I got needy and pushed her away. But, and this is the magical God part, I finally manifested a wing literally the day I pushed her away. This guy is  the perfect role model, he's a natural whose been with more women than he can remember. His rizz is simply off the charts and I see my progress skyrocketing with him.

but we also talked about real shit, and he revealed to me some of his problems, multiple suicide attempts. And it put things in perspective and helped me to realize that having game isn't as important as I think. Which of course will only make my game that much better because I have proof it isn't a panacea.

Edited January 4 by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

Immortality is the realization that you imagined your birth.

[Oppositionless]

3 and a half days thc free

 

dude im even more fucked up over this break up than I thought. I don't want to smoke but I do kinda want to die... still it's better than wanting to die because of feeling like I can't attract women.

I want my pickup skillls to develop faster than is probably physically possible. I just want to forget about her. I resent her for moving, I know it's not right but that's just how I feel. Ffs, this is hard.

no contact, focusing on myself and time is the solution...

Edited January 5 by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

 

 

 

In Nuuk, the capital of Greenland, singles have various avenues to meet and connect, both through vibrant nightlife and online platforms.

 

Nightlife and Social Venues:

 

Nuuk offers a selection of bars and clubs where individuals can socialize:

    •    Nuuk Bryghus: This local brewery provides beer tastings from 17:00 to 19:00, featuring unique brews like the Sugar Kelp Ale made with Greenlandic seaweed. It’s an excellent place to start the evening and mingle with others.

    •    The Three Mut’s: A trio of interconnected bars, each with its own ambiance:

    •    MaxiMutten: A cozy pub with good music and reasonably priced drinks.

    •    MiniMutten: Features a wild west-themed décor and live music, offering a lively atmosphere.

    •    KristineMutten: The oldest bar in Nuuk, named after the Greenlandic word “mutten,” meaning “the place where we meet,” reflecting its role as a social hub.

    •    Killut: Transforms into a cocktail lounge in the evening, complete with disco lights and a mix of local and popular music. It’s a spot where patrons can relax on comfortable couches or dance as the night progresses.

    •    Daddy’s Club: A central bar that becomes lively around midnight, attracting a diverse crowd. Activities like darts and pool are available, making it a relaxed environment to meet new people.

    •    Garagen Nightclub: For those looking to dance into the early hours, this nightclub is popular on Fridays, with patrons arriving around 1:30 AM to enjoy a variety of music genres.

 

Online Dating Platforms:

 

In addition to in-person venues, online dating has become a popular way for singles in Nuuk to connect:

    •    Loveawake: A free online dating site with a significant user base in Greenland, offering options for those seeking serious relationships.

    •    Mingle2: Another free dating platform that allows individuals in Nuuk to create profiles, chat, and meet potential partners.

    •    Badoo: A social networking site that facilitates chatting and meeting new people in Greenland, including Nuuk.

 

Cultural Considerations:

 

Greenlandic dating culture is known for its directness. It’s common for women to make the first move, reflecting the egalitarian nature of society. This straightforward approach can simplify the dating process, as individuals often express their interest openly.

 

Whether through engaging in Nuuk’s nightlife or utilizing online platforms, singles in the city have multiple opportunities to meet and build connections.

 

[Oppositionless]

This video is amazing . I love Christians 

This is an impressive tier list

 

I even love this song . I also love gangsters.

 

 

 

I put kratom in playing with fire, under psychedelics . Diet lean . Money , fame and status goes in grip of the devil above porn. Future seems like a decent enough guy. He reminds me of some of the charismatic people I've met. But I don't envy them anymore.

Edited January 10 by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

Notice how Father Moses and Future both construct a reality , the only way out of addiction is by deconstructing it.

its time for monk mode 

Edited January 10 by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

I know Leo loves crocodiles, but im a diehard orca fanboy 

 

[Oppositionless]

3 days thc free, 6 if im not including smoking while already intoxicated on alcohol 

 

Deleting this post because it was over the top negativity .

Edited January 16 by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

Nope. Not going down that road again.

Edited January 16 by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

12 hours thc free 

Yeah I smoked a lot of grass last night. I was drunk. I'm pretty good about not smoking normally but when I drink I can't seem to help myself.

My buddy said I was the most dominant guy in the bar, which is funny, weed makes me close to nonverbal. I don't feel like the most dominant guy in the bar, but maybe being a nice person is more Chad than being a loud extrovert.

i don't even want to do pickup, sex is like not that important to me. I just want validation and attention . And love.

[Oppositionless]

Bisexual women

amazing wings, so much attention

 

if I don't post a day counter you can assume I'm high or only a few hours sober

There's definitely a tension between sobriety and pickup. For me pickup always leads to alcohol which leads to weed. That's just how I operate.

a strong bisexual woman will do all the work for you . A woman who understands women is powerful.

Edited Monday at 07:24 AM by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

24 hours clean 

 

today I smoked some cbd bud and it gave me a nice mellow effect without getting me high.

I need to clarify why I want to quit

1) paranoia 

2) delusions

3) social retardation 

4) hangover

it's relatively easy for me to stay sober when I'm by myself. But it's much harder to resist when I'm out with friends and approaching women. But it makes me worse at game so I'll use my desire to improve to help me quit .

 

I miss my ex a bit. Game has certainly helped it not be so bad, but regardless, I wrote this in my journal earlier :

 

I hope she feels just like me

Not super sad but just a nagging sense of what if

A feeling of disappointment, of wishing she'd met me there instead of here

Of wishing we'd had more time

Of wishing I'd shown her lord of the rings 

Hoping I visit 

Hoping when I visit it's just like old times 

Happy for her new life , and sad I'm not part of it